June 29, 2018
Insomnia night. I am up and typing when I ought to be sleeping. I am having an anxiety episode. So frustrating
I made some split pea soup yesterday. I use one of Chef Aj's recipes as a guide. The spice mix she has is awesome. I made it in the Instant Pot and cooked the potatoes separate on the stove. I started adding a bay leaf when boiling potatoes because I discovered just one will add a lot of flavor. That was one of my best so far, or else it was because I was so hungry that it just seemed to taste better than the previous batches.
I used green split pea. I have some yellow split peas in the cupboard that are now screaming, "Us next!" What to make? Time to pull out Vegan Richa's cookbook.
I wish hubby would get on board with eating whole food plant based; it would make it so much easier for me and not give me an excuse to go off plan. We have some stressful things happening right now and when I get upset I find myself grabbing whatever is available (now it is hubby's stash) and I have to make a huge effort to stop shoveling it in my mouth. If he'd get on board, that stuff wouldn't be in the house. Now, I am blaming him. What a vicious cycle.
He always lectures about the evils of GMO's and he started up with the food demonstrator at Costco when the conversation turned to eating healthy. He seems to think that GMO are the only cause of the health issues. I tried to interrupt the conversation he was starting by saying, "No, it is the processed foods that we need to avoid."
https://www.drmcdougall.com/2013/08/31/gmo-foods-a-potentially-disastrous-distraction/I always say, "Cast your vote at the checkout." If you want to avoid GMO's, then pay attention to what you are eating and stay away from the processed foods that you know may have them in the ingredient list. Then again, if the ingredient list is longer than your arm, then you are better off not buying it.
He is a bit passive aggressive and now, because I did that, we now have ice cream in our freezer. A couple months ago, I realized the ill effect ice cream had on me when I ran, so I asked him to remind me that I am no longer going to eat ice cream. That has been one of my foods I enjoyed when working out in the garden or yard on a hot day. Plus, in the past I have had a love affair with Dairy Queen's peanut buster parfaits. It was one that that I did not give up. Now, I have to keep my frustration in check so I keep my fingers out of that box. He bought a box from the Schwan driver (company that home delivers frozen foods) that was at the bank when we were there and it is a good thing he read the ingredient list to me- mostly sugar and oil in addition to the dairy. I kept my mouth shut on the fact that that product is most likely made with GMO ingredients.
I am going to be honest and admit that my eating has not been according to plan. But my weight seems to be holding within a couple of pounds. On the positive side of things, I am noticing that my jeans are looser and I even tightened my belt in one notch. So, even with the bloat, something is happening. Back in October, I wanted to see if I could get down to a particular weight by my 60th birthday. If I am going to do it, I'll have to release about 3 pounds in the next 32 days. Not sure if I can do it, because even when I am on plan I eat a lot of the foods that have more calories than say, greens.
Time for me to check out my cookbooks and see what I can make with those yellow split peas.