Thank you Kathy and Traci and Glenn! I appreciate each of your kind words, sometimes I let the details get in the way of the bigger picture.
Traci - You are always there for people on these forums, with knowledge and a gentle perspective. I am in awe of your ability to get your thoughts across so clearly and in such detail. (PS. I noticed some changes on one of the Facebook pages, do you know what happened? The algorithm that Facebook uses to tailor my newsfeed's information seems to think I am inordinately fond of babies and cats and obesity research, so unless I go looking in my Facebook groups, I never know what's going on)
Today's food:
Pictured here:
1) Kid's uneaten plain oatmeal
2) brown rice, 3 bean Chili, broccoli sprouts and raw green beans, blueberries
3) pomelo (the size of 3 oranges, at least)
Not pictured:
2 pots of green tea
Yesterday's food:
Pictured here:
1)Kinsley Restaurant: white rice, tea, steamed veggies and steamed bean sprouts and tofu in soy sauce (sprouts had small amount of oil - I had been very hopeful that this restaurant could accommodate the no-oil, they feel they did, but the proof is in the picture)
2) pomelo (the size of 2 oranges, maybe)
Not pictured:
2 pots of green tea
930 calories of whole wheat crackers and dark chocolate (The kids forgot a bag of their fundraiser chocolate at home and I discovered it...poor decisions prevailed.)
I am calm and at peace today (how I'd actually say it if asked - I'm all good here). Tone can sometimes be difficult to discern from a typed page. These notes and additional notes below are just me reflecting and trying to learn why I behave the way I do, in order to develop prevention strategies.
Notes:
Since starting the photo journal I have included every single food I have eaten in it. Most of the time via a photo, but when I have forgotten to take one I have added it to the bottom in the Not Pictured section (if there is no verbal description on a particular day, the only thing not accounted for is the green tea).
Roundcoconut made a good suggestion to not include the off plan food photos. It's unfair to others doing so well.
I actually did photograph yesterday's binge, hoping that would stop it in it's tracks...but it didn't...but maybe it was lessened, that I cannot know. What has made today not feel as bad as expected are all of the encouraging words from everyone. I'll pick myself up and get back on track now, thank you.
Additional notes:
Have I put myself into the Ego trap? Were my previous few weeks choices not that bad? I'm not sure. They weren't perfect, as in 100% MWL compliant. Did my need for "perfection" lead to last night's binge? Did my embarrassment about posting about it exacerbate an otherwise "okay" week? I have a feeling I am wrong when I said the other day that displaying my poor choices via photographs is only making me feel bad but not affecting those choices (or is not a good strategy). Dr. Lisle has talked about this in a few of his recent McDougall webinars. I mean, I haven't disappeared down a binge induced rabbit hole again today, and that's progress based on my history.
So, now let's just repeat that tomorrow and the next day, and then reassess how I am feeling about myself.
Alright, I'd better get to bed before this devolves into total word salad.
Have a wonderful evening all! I'm about to delve into a gripping Dr Seuss story with my youngest, who cannot sleep.
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