Debbie and Yomom thank you for the empathy and encouragement!
I appreciate it. It's nice to know someone's peeking in on me, even when I'm tripping and stumbling and sinking in my own muck, LOL ...
I've been hanging in there at kind of half-hearted half-effort. Which means I haven't *totally* given up.
LOL
And I plan to make today Day Zero-and-a-half -- that is I'm starting again NOW and I'll do what I need to do tonight (run to the store for veggies) so that I'm able to stick to the plan.
I'm taking a tip from Debbie and I'm going to try to plan out some go-to snacks. To answer the question *before it arises* about what to eat when I want a snack. I think I will choose apples, or grapefruit, or oat bran cereal, or oatmeal. Or a sweet potato. LOL. Oh, or air popped popcorn if I *really* want a treat. I will NOT eat chocolate or crackers that are in the house for other people.
I am also going to try to make sure we're buying less junk, and junk *I* don't like, for the kids' snacks. As the main shopper, I'm usually the one who buys the "treats" ...
the other thing I'm going to do is TELL my husband I'm trying again and ASK him to back me up when I'm weak, to remind me I don't want to eat junk. He's frustrated with his weight/health too, so even if he's not McDougalling, strictly, we both could use the *absence of junk* in our daily lives.
I realized the other day that I'm probably eating well for 500 calories of chocolate and/or baked chips before bed. WELL over, only I never want to count the wrappers or check the chip bags too closely, because I don't want to KNOW the bad news. But wow, even if I just drop that late night snack off, I should lose some weight.
So. That's my plan. Starting with the apple I just ate. I'm already on the way.