fulenn wrote::eek:
So glad nothing worse happened! (Not minimizing what happened, just glad there wasn't even more.) But, wow! I love that you will (did?) eat your mac 'n cheeze--I agree that it is comfort food. I think I would want to cut my hair short, or off, too. Wish I was there to hug you and give you lots of good things to think about and go do.
Fulenn
Thanks Fulenn, you're awesome. When I think about the situation, I am flooded with relief that there were no weapons around. Essentially, the guy took me hostage because people were telling him to calm down. Hell, *I* had tried to calm him a minute before he grabbed me. I mean, it could have been a murder scene if the guy had been carrying a gun. And yes, the mac n cheeze was delicious. Comfort food. And!!! I made a batch of avocado chocolate pudding. YUM. so that took care of the food side of feeling better.
I also talked to a counselor who happened to be right here, literally across the street from my job, who had a cancellation at 1:30...which now that I think about it, wow...who specializes in trauma, who told me my instincts are good and to trust them. I knew when we pulled up at the Maverik, the guy was out of his mind and I wanted to avoid him...but in we went.
The counselor also told me to get a massage, which I did, and it was heavenly AND I signed up for a monthly massage, which is something I've been wanting to do since starting at a desk job.
On my way to work this morning I raged a bit and cried. I'll do more of that, I'm sure. And time will pass and it will become a memory and won't disturb me as much. But until then, I remain pretty stunned and weepy. But I'm at work and will get things done. That foggy unfocused mentality I had yesterday is gone, thank goodness.
That Mac n Cheeze recipe is from
Brand New Vegan.
Ingredients16 oz Yukon Gold Potatoes (about 3 medium)
2-3 large Carrots
1/2 cup Water (used to boil potatoes)
1/4 cup Nutritional yeast
2 Tbs Nutritional yeast (in addition to above)
2 Tbs Lemon Juice
1 tsp Apple Cider Vinegar
1 tsp Salt
1/2 tsp Onion Powder
1/2 tsp Garlic Powder
1/2 tsp Brown Mustard
1/8 tsp Turmeric
Instructions1.Wash and scrub both potatoes and carrots, peel if desired and chop into uniform pieces and boil for 10 minutes
2. Let rest for 5 minutes and then with a slotted spoon, transfer the veggies to your blender
3. Add 1/2 cup potato water and pulse to mix
4. Add remaining ingredients and blend until smooth and creamy
The first time I made it, the texture wasn't all that wonderful, and the second time (with butternut squash instead of carrots) there was no flavor. But then I made it again, and WOW. And it's turned out amazing every time, even this last time without peeling the potatoes, because those potatoes were TINY. But I did peel the carrots.
What I do that is different from the recipe:
1) No measured potato water. When they are done boiling, I pour off the water using a small "lid strainer" leaving some little bit of water in the pot but not a half cup. Then I just dump the vegs in the blender on top of the other ingredients.
2) I put all the ingredients in the blender while the potatoes and carrots cook, then just add the cooked vegs and start blending. This is where a drop or two of water might help.
3) when putting in the lemon juice, I "slosh"...that made a big difference in the flavor
4) I use about 1/2 tsp powdered mustard instead of the brown mustard. Don't know if that makes a huge difference but it's what I do.
and I blend until it is really smooth. Somehow or nother, this gives it a creamy "gloppy" texture, sort of like you'd have with cheese, IMO. I think the protein in the potatoes gets goopy from being blended, similar to how gluten behaves when it is worked hard.
It comes together quickly, and it is delicious. I used it on a fake tuna samwich for the creaminess. Not bad. Not bad at all.