Katgirl, please know that we are absolutely here for you and supportive, no matter what! Even two meals a day that are plant-based 90% of the time, will move you in a positive direction. That is the whole point! And moving in the right direction is a complete success.
I like that you have been able to say, "Here's what I think will be best for me, right now, given my circumstances" and you certainly don't need to apologize for that. Hold your head high!
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I do know that people find it much easier to re-find their old grooves, and so you too may be able to get back into a pattern you once followed with a fair amount of sure-footedness, than to try to build something from scratch. We are all like this! You'll notice people here who have had success doing food together with a walking program, so when they decide to pull things back together, it is actually easier and smoother to go right back to that food and walking program, than to "take things easy" and omit the walking. it is funny like that!
I too seek out old patterns that have worked well for me, if I start to get a little sloppy. One of my old patterns I've recently returned to is to drink unsweetened hot cocoa as my beverage of choice rather than give in to coffee. I've been about three months without a daily coffee (but have been having a cup or two a week) and just want to have an easier time of it, and a pleasurable time of it. So I am drinking cocoa (even right now, as I'm writing)!
Sending good vibes your way, and all energies of encouragement and approval!