@ Mary ~ I am so sorry to hear about your sister. Cancer is so horrible. I have watched family members fight and lose the battle. Sadly, many of them just don't realize that maybe they could do things differently and survive. My hope is that my future encounters with family and friends in a similar situation will allow me to share what I have learned... and maybe, just maybe... someone will be helped by the information.
I seem to be adding to my journal more lately. I guess it is a good place to celebrate change and vent. Tonight I will be venting. Today was an interesting and semi-frustrating day. I struggled with my husband's attitude again. He was angry because, in his words, "all you do is research and find all of the things that are bad for us." (in response the cancer movie and other things I have been finding)
He seems to be on board and then his frustration surfaces again and again. Part of the issue is that he isn't letting go of his junk food at work, so it is not allowing his tastes to change so he enjoys the healthy food more at home. He is having major caffeine and sugar crashes at home because he has a beverage bar at his disposal when he is working and loads on sugar beverages and coffee, choosing not to eat all day. He is resentful and he acts on it in a very passive-aggressive way that makes me want to throw things at him.
We have great days and then it takes a dive. I thought my enchilada night was such a success... and it was. Then we had to take about 5 steps backward today.
I know it will take time and I really am trying hard to be patient.
On the flip side, my son has embraced this way of life like he was born for it. I thought it would be a harder transition for him, but he is doing fantastic. I enjoy his attitude and excitement. He talks about the things I cook as "a little piece of heaven."
He grabs healthy snacks of fruits and veggies and he is getting really good at recognizing gluten as an ingredient in things. It helps me so much to have him happy and excited about the permanent changes in our house. (He has always had choices because of my healthy eating and his dad's unhealthy eating... so now that I have taken over the house and there is no unhealthy food... he has just adapted wonderfully.)
I adore my husband and we have a great relationship. We have always been best friends. It feels very much like there is a bit of a wall between us now with the changes and I don't like it, but I am not willing to go backwards anymore just to keep him happy. I know he is unsettled because he didn't expect me to last this long in keeping all junk out of the house. Little does he know...
He better get used to it. Cause this healthy girl isn't backing down ever again.