That's the only way I know how to describe it, anyway. My head felt bad, my joints are complaining, and I felt thick & sluggish, like my whole body was sloshing through sludge.
See, yesterday I went on a binge. Or at least what counts for a binge now. Compared to what a binge used to be for me, it was nothing. But still. I can't recall the last time I ate this much of this kind of bad-for-you food.
I bought:
- 5 large dark-chocolate truffles (truffle fillings usually have dairy ingredients, which I try to avoid most assiduously due to it causing joint pain). At home, I took a bite from each. Two were so bland I threw them away immediately. In the past I'd have bought a dozen and eaten all before I got home.
- 1 bag of Pepperidge Farm cookies. Ate 5 (1/3 of bag), then realized that they were just too oily tasting. In the past I'd have eaten 1-2 bags while shopping, then bought a 3rd to eat on the way home.
- 1 slice of cake. In the past, I'd have had 2 at least (along with the cookies & the truffles).
- 1 rotisseried chicken. Truly had no intention of eating this; I'll buy 1 every 6 months or so and grind it up w/beans to make "Mommy's special meat" for my daughter's lunches. I don't crave meat in general. But after all that sugar, I guess, the lack of sweetness was what I wanted. I ate a little less than 1 breast of chicken. This has never really been a binge food for me.
Today, like I said, I literally feel hung over! Fortunately I do not feel guilty or hopeless or like giving up on my eating plan (which always drove me to binge some more, in the past) -- quite the opposite, in fact. Today I am craving plain chickpeas & veggies!
I do, however, feel a little guilty about eating the chicken, 'cuz I've come to feel that eating dead animals when you don't need to -- especially factory farmed animals which this chicken probably was -- is just plain gross.
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