by Butterfly043 » Fri Jan 31, 2020 8:47 am
Good Morning on this last day of January 2020. I have stayed the same weight as last week, and trying to get my act straight. I'm going to work harder to try to see the scale move the right way all thru February, and be more in control of my encountered temptations and struggles.
I hope it's okay to mention that I was watching the newest video from Krocks In The Kitchen on youtube last night, and Jessica Krock was having the same exact struggles as I've been having with sweets, and it was exactly what I needed to hear in order to know that I'm really okay; that the struggles happen to everyone whether you have support or don't, because her husband is partnering with her on the WFPB way of eating and she still struggles. My husband is not partnering with me, and I just thought my struggles were because of going this alone. I know now that that isn't true. It's just an unwanted but normal struggle I'll always have from time to time just like anyone else.
Then I also remembered what my lung doctor told me last year. He said that what I was doing by going on the WFPB way of eating wasn't something that everyone can do, and that I should just be proud that I was doing what I was doing at all. I don't think that he thought I'd stay with it, because I just saw him last week, one year later, and when I told him I was still doing it, he asked me what I was eating on that diet, but last year he said that some people will say they are just going to give up ice cream for a week, and be in the ice cream by that same evening, so after 14 months, he was really impressed I was still eating that way even though I had my personal struggles. It's these things that I need to remember and hold on to when I'm going thru my struggles, and I think that will help me to stay on track. I tell you, there were times I just figured what's the use and wanted to thru up my hands and quit, but I'm not going to ever do that. I was just too busy beating myself up and feeling like I was a failure, because after 14 months of eating this way, it's hard not to feel like a failure when you have a long stretch of everything going right and then have a month of what seems like you can't do things right, but then Jessica and her husband have been on their WFPB way of eating for 18 months, and she still struggles too, so I'll remember that to help me as well.
Just listening to Jessica Krock talk about her struggles and how she thought she was strong enough that she could have maybe one or two pieces of candy a day, and then find out she wasn't that strong, and was going thru an entire bag sounded just like me. Sometimes just hearing someone else talk about their own personal battles can help others like me, and believe me, it has helped me tremendously. The fact that she said she got into the mini Reese's Cups over an entire few weeks and wasn't really able to control it, actually gave me new hope in knowing that I am not alone in my struggles. Mine was with M&M's, but other than that, the very same issues with food and temptations. I think that's what I needed to hear to help me get back on track. Now that I know it's just part of the normal struggle, and there's nothing terribly wrong with me; I think I can fight it better instead of beating myself up from now on. Time will tell, but I do know that anything worth doing isn't always going to be all that easy.
Weight in. Same at 123
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Butterfly043 on Fri Jan 31, 2020 8:57 am, edited 2 times in total.
I'm determined to escape the Pleasure Trap for good. 
