First of all, my apologies for the long post.
I have recently started reading the board again after a long time away and I am so grateful for this somewhat new forum! My heart aches to have somewhere to read and speak of both God and the McDougall way freely with like-minded people. I want to grow so much in both areas.
I am soon to be 70 years old and am overweight by 80 to 100 pounds. All of my recent blood tests came back more healthy than most thin people but I know the weight is not good. The only meds I take are Synthroid and a BP med that I could probably go off of very soon. I also go to a very fast-paced water aerobic class 3 days a week and I McDougall a good 85% of the time so I'm sure that's what has kept me okay so far but I'm smart enough to know that it's not good enough. I have more than enough head knowledge - I just can't seem to put it into action permanently.
I have 2 big food issues: Sugar and bread. I have a slightly better handle on the bread but the sugar can be a beast. They are both enough to keep me from succeeding along with all of the church gatherings and food-related functions with the Widows Group at church. I have found it extremely difficult to participate and not just eat what's there. I'm so messed up in the brain when it comes to these occasions.
I have been McDougalling off and on since 1994 and believe with all my heart that this is the way to go. I attended a ten-day McDougall live-in program in 2005 and loved it but never took it to a successful end.
My problem is that I have never had complete success and I am my own worst enemy. I don't know what it feels like to actually make it and for some reason it scares me to death to actually win this battle. It's kind of like losing a part of my very being as I have been an emotional eater all of my life and it's taken me through lots of bad emotional journeys. I've conquered most of the issues but for some reason yet, I do not allow myself to succeed or to even get near goal. I did lose 30 pounds and have kept that off but, at my age, it tries to creep back up regularly.
If I can figure out how to just let it happen, I will be thrilled. Maybe this book, my growing faith and this forum will be the beginning. I so appreciate all of you and your contributions.
Thank you for your time and your blessings in advance, Pat