Norm,
Is that your polite way of saying, "I told you so"?
Truly, you are correct. I keep thinking "I'll do it this time." Or, "If I can just get over the hump, I'll be fine." Or, "I just want to get under 300, and then it will be easier." No, no, and no. I can't stay on track. Mostly, it's the additions to the things I shouldn't be eating: meat and cheese. I've pretty much conquered my addiction to peanut butter and Reece's cups. I rarely eat them now. And if I do, I can now stop at 2-3 little Reese's. My family is not on-board, and they continue to eat the Standard American Diet. So, when I have my rice, potatoes, etc, and they're eating delicious pepperoni and salami sandwiches.....sometimes it's just too much.
I had a enjoyable Thanksgiving, but I ate horribly. I said, "Well, I'll start again tomorrow." But then we had so many leftovers! As a result, I witnessed the scariest thing regarding my blood sugar. Friday night, my blood sugar was 454. 454! I should have been in the hospital! Saturday night, even after eating "properly", it was still over 400. Last night it was getting better, but still at about 350. This is scary. My morning blood sugar readings are in the high-200's. Not good at all. In fear, I started taking my metforming again this weekend. I don't know if it's helping, or if it's the change in diet. Or both.
If I can just really buckle down and go hardcore for a month, I'll be ok. No! No! In theory, perhaps. But you're right, Norm. I can't do it. Maybe I should shut up and listen to the guy who's been so successful. Sure, I've lost 40 pounds since the first of the year. Well, actually just 38 because I gained 4 pounds in November.
What should I do? Where should I start? I honestly have no clue what to do. I know the rules. I know what I'm supposed to eat, what I can't eat. But I can't do it. Tell me again what I should do. Help!