Weight: 203
Well....I have let me stress out in my eating. I've been very aware of a new pattern of binging which I truly had not expressed before in my life to this degree.So many factors contributing to the stress I've chosen to eat my way through, only to my own dissatisfaction with my own body. I have become the heaviest I have ever been: 203 pounds.
I have been experiencing symptoms of the weight that I had not before. Soreness in my feet and knees, sluggishness, feeling heavy in my belly, difficulty moving around. And I dislike it all. Where I live the wildfire smoke has taken our air hostage and it has been nearly impossible to exercise, that is, go for a walk, for over a month. This is disheartening, but I can't let it stop me entirely.
I read my favorite success stories, watch Forks Over Knives, read Chef AJ especially, and High Carb Hannah. They ARE inspiring and still I have chosen to eat what makes me feel poorly.
Another new moon, in Virgo, especially good for making health changes. My life worth living depends upon my state of health. I have control over my health. Thankfully I have money enough to buy foods that are healthy, and that doesn't mean fancy, it means potatoes, cabbage, cauliflower, fresh green herbs, frozen fruits, oatmeal, quinoa, rice.
I have been writing in my own journal about how being fat, being heavy is an impediment to me expressing my full self. I inhibit myself. I am a counselor and life coach and my appearance is important to my work. It isn't the only thing, however as I make the shift from working as an employed person to a self-employed person, my image, my physical image does relate information to people, it is what people see and it is important that they see 'healthy'. Also, I am wanting to reclaim my beauty. I have been hiding under fat for a decade and I want to release this habit, no more hiding, from now forth, being pleased to let myself shine, letting myself be beautiful, it's ok to be radiant and beautiful.