September 19, 2018
Well I have to get a handle on my eating. My weight keeps going up and up. I need to nip it in the bud right now - today! I have been joining some 8 week challenges with a break in between each one and I am noticing that I am completely going off plan when the challenges stop.
I just finished reading the Beck Diet Solution and today's 'lesson' was Practice Practice Practice - do the skills learned (cognitive behavior) to retrain your brain to think differently. Hubby is going through some of the same type of therapy for his pain management and I have been overly critical about him not putting into practice the things they are attempting him to learn. ~~Hey Nancy! Guess what?! you are not putting into practice the things you have been reading about these past weeks.~~ Doesn't the saying go something like you are most critical of others in the things that you don't like about yourself?
I'm guilty.
One of the reminder in the Beck Diet Solution for this day is:
If you think --
it's not fair I can't eat normally and have what everyone else is eatingRemind yourself -- blah, blah, blah
I don't want to eat what everyone else is eating. When I am around my family, my siblings notice I do not eat animal products, and recognize that I eat a bit different than they do. I am the only one that is not overweight. BUT, they do see that I eat a lot of junk food. I am hoping to change this and soon!
My mom is doing well considering all she has been through and said that the doctor told her to expect to be released on the 27th -- the day that Medicare runs out. They have secondary insurance that will cover for a longer period of time. But hopefully she will be strong enough to go home.
Hubby had a doctor appointment yesterday and while waiting I went to my parents home and got a good workout in by starting to clean their basement. I expect when she goes home, I'll be making more frequent trips to town to help them out with cooking and cleaning.
I had a craving on the way home to eat, I really did not care what it was. I was stressed. Hubby stresses me out just by being around me at times. Here I was stuck in the car with him for the drive into town. It is his talking that bugs me. He does not have a conversation with me, he just delivers monologues and talks about what is on his mind and he is like that little energizer bunny and goes on and on and on and on and on and on.
I cannot stand it and it frustrates me to no end. Even when I say I do care about the topic, in his mind I told him I don't understand what he is saying and then he'll go on to explain what it is he is talking about. Part of the issue is that we are opposites: he is a talker and I am not. I can enjoy silence while being in some one else's company, he cannot he has to express his thoughts and opinions about anything and everything. If I am real agitated, I tell him that I disagree with what he is saying and then he'll be offended that I do not share his opinion and shuts up and sulks.
So, anyways, as I impersonated the Energizer Bunny, I was going to say, when we stopped on the way home I saw this bag of caramel corn that I liked in the past. I bought 2 bags. However, I did not eat any when we got back in the car. (Eating while driving has been a trigger of eating junk for me.) So, I give myself credit for at least waiting until I got home. And, I also did not rip open the bag as soon as I got settled, but I waited until after I had something good to eat: Hobo dinner (onion, carrot, potato, zucchini) and some stir fry vegetables (plain).
I ended up overeating the caramel corn - way over eating. As I was eating it, I was thinking that I really ought to be feeling full and I wasn't. I recall watching a video where some one was saying that the processed junk food will override our brain signal that lets us know we are actually full and should stop eating. -- Just an observation about my sensation I had while eating. Now, I am aware of it and can take appropriate steps to avoid this in the future.
I am hoping for a good day of eating health supporting food today.
Oh, my new tent arrived yesterday. Unfortunately the days I wanted to go camping, rain is in the forecast. I wanted to go hiking while camping but do not want to get wet while doing so because the temperatures are now dropping to close to freezing at night. Hopefully, the forecast will change by the time those days I have chosen come around. Otherwise, I will go camping next month, but wimp out and get a cabin site.