@roundcoconut - Thanks for throwing out the caution! I'm still evaluating the situation. But, your words reminded me that is it always better to think and act instead of just react to any situation.
I survived the second party last night!
I knew it would go better because I was around people that I love and love me back. Some of these friends I've known as long as my husband. A few know about the background stresses of Friday evening, so they were also supportive of me dressing last night in similar fashion to Friday evening. They saw my post on fb. They knew I'd want to wear those clothes more than once to justify the purchase. I was the most dressed up last night (another not who I've been moment), but didn't feel overdressed. Some were in jeans, slacks, skirts and dresses... it was fun to know everybody was comfortable "being" themselves!
My eating on Friday was spot on. A salad without dressing and a baked potato. The dinner served at the Country Club was a smorgasbord of meat, roasted veggies, salad and bread. Not going to lie... we were sitting right by the prime rib serving station and it smelled rather nice. The person sitting next to me, had a beautifully prepared hunk of pink salmon. Others remarked how fantastic the chicken tasted. The company obviously wanted it known that they weren't skimping on their employees. Dessert was a chocolate mint torte. Everything looked and smelled fantastic (yes, I'm still that close to the "old days")! But, I was so happy and content to be satisfied with the salad, potato and conversation.
Last night... well, not going to lie. There was an appetizer spread. There was a dessert spread. And, then there was the main meal... a beautiful pork crown roast prepared by a friend that is a gourmet chef, roasted potatoes with fresh rosemary sprigs, and glazed carrots. It's a very good thing that I've never been a real fan of pork bc it looked amazing! Candies were strewn all around as party decorations for the grabbing. These friends are forgiving friends who (mostly) are familiar with the struggle I've had to ever lose any weight. Most do not know yet, however, exactly how I'm losing the weight these days. Our host is a close friend that is a doctor. I haven't even let him or his wife know what I'm specifically doing. He has been (on his own) studying out nutrition bc he and others at church are exercise enthusiasts who like to keep trim and healthy. I don't know, though, how he feels about vegan vs a rounded diet. I've been hoping to postpone the talk until my weight loss and health are a little more undeniable.
So, what I ate (without mind games or internal struggle).... about 1 cup each roasted potatoes and carrots (yes, there was butter), 3 large fresh broccoli spears, 4 large green olives (stuffed with jalapeno and garlic) and 6 crackers (from the appetizer spread). For dessert, I ate about 3/4 cup of fresh blueberries. The major indiscretions were 4 candies (white playing white elephant), a small (about 6 oz) cup of an ice cream and coffee drink and 2 cheesecake bites. Considering I only ate half my normal food for breakfast and lunch, I won't berate myself. I expected a sugar headache this morning after the rush I got last night. Honestly, no headache and no ill effects at all except the scale was up 1 pound. ***In re-reading this, I realize how excessive the sugar intake really was. Not my norm. But, I also know that there wasn't any degree of pleasure derived from it. Generally, I am not a big sugar-eater. That may be where the lack of breakfast and lunch food volume reared its head. But, I have no craving or desire for any more sugar.***
We are in a money crunch and I've slowly run out of almost all of my food except potatoes. I will put out the money for more white potatoes and continue eating from my stash of sweets. I believe the monotony of food for the next week-and-a-half will fare me well to cleanse the palate and stabilize sugar.
I'll need some stability as the weather continues to be crazy. Yesterday was nearly 70, it has been incredibly windy all night and this morning with only slighter cooler temps. But, by weeks end, there is a prediction of snow flurries
! Yep, we live in the midwest! The little one that I watch during the week, had his eardrum rupture last week... as the temp and pressure kept changing, he would have episodes of pain. He couldn't sleep at night or for naps without waking up multiple times. All ages struggle! Allergies (normally relieved by the freezing temps once leaves have fallen) are off the chart for several friends. Flu bugs are making their way around. More determination to eat this way and continue anticipating and experiencing the benefit of better health!
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