Re: I've lost count of how many times I have restarted....
Posted: Wed Mar 23, 2016 8:19 am
Yesterday, I read a post by one of the moderators in the Lounge forum. He spoke about someone wanting to have all of their previous posts and Journal entries removed because they were struggling and didn't want to post anymore. He said he was heartbroken by this. He wished them well, hoping that they would return and for their continued healthy success. I must admit that I don't know whom he was referring to, but that doesn't really matter.
His words and the outpouring of support and struggles from others spoke to me.
I read the forums for more than a year before I signed up for an account. At one point I decided I wanted some community support and started a journal. I discussed my goals and struggles, my day to day thoughts. It had a sad and desperate tone on some days. It began to make me sad and embarrassed to update it. So I stopped. But I didn't stop trying to eat healthy, I didn't stop reading the forum. I just couldn't handle my own lack of success when others appeared to be having more of it. I couldn't take 1 more positive, you can do it, comment when I wasn't sure that I wanted to anymore or even could.
I have often wanted to remove this journal, and many of my struggling thoughts on why I find it so difficult to follow this plan consistently. It pains me to read through it's history. It pains me to read through my history. But I keep it here as a reminder to myself of how much progress I have made. Three steps forward, two steps back, but progress none the less.
Learning to navigate the pitfalls of one's own personality, surrounding yourself with supportive people (online and in real life), and most importantly just keep doing your best are the main lessons that I have learned and offer to all of you.
I cannot thank Dr. McDougall enough for providing access not only to the "how" of healthy living, but also to the "who". Reading through these forums has been invaluable to me.
“Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them—if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.”
― J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye
It's been more than 5 years and I still have a ways to go, but here is a look at my progress thus far:
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Amy
His words and the outpouring of support and struggles from others spoke to me.
I read the forums for more than a year before I signed up for an account. At one point I decided I wanted some community support and started a journal. I discussed my goals and struggles, my day to day thoughts. It had a sad and desperate tone on some days. It began to make me sad and embarrassed to update it. So I stopped. But I didn't stop trying to eat healthy, I didn't stop reading the forum. I just couldn't handle my own lack of success when others appeared to be having more of it. I couldn't take 1 more positive, you can do it, comment when I wasn't sure that I wanted to anymore or even could.
I have often wanted to remove this journal, and many of my struggling thoughts on why I find it so difficult to follow this plan consistently. It pains me to read through it's history. It pains me to read through my history. But I keep it here as a reminder to myself of how much progress I have made. Three steps forward, two steps back, but progress none the less.
Learning to navigate the pitfalls of one's own personality, surrounding yourself with supportive people (online and in real life), and most importantly just keep doing your best are the main lessons that I have learned and offer to all of you.
I cannot thank Dr. McDougall enough for providing access not only to the "how" of healthy living, but also to the "who". Reading through these forums has been invaluable to me.
“Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them—if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.”
― J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye
It's been more than 5 years and I still have a ways to go, but here is a look at my progress thus far:
[img]11https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1605/25885806962_ed6b896973_z_d.jpg[/img]
[img]11https://farm2.staticflickr.com/1497/25374111464_9e9b27242e_z_d.jpg[/img]
Amy