Re: Nicoles Psoriatic Arthritis Journal
Posted: Mon Mar 28, 2011 3:04 pm
So here I am again, neglectful journal-er ... sneaking back in...
I don't have too much to report, only......
I HAVE REACHED A NEW LEVEL OF PAIN REDUCTION!!!!!
I am SO happy. Yet another step forward.
I have some hard times on this diet. I question whether I am just perpetuating a denial about my illness and am being foolish to pursue this WOE to help and heal my arthritis.
Usually these doubts happen at night, when I am tired and cranky, and lead to a little bit of insomnia. Nothing huge, but I am someone who falls asleep in seconds, so worrying in bed for an extra 40 minutes seems endless. I know from my husband, who TRULY suffers from days-without-sleep-insomnia, that this is small change, but still, it keeps me up.
The changes are slow for me. Initially dramatic, then slow ups and downs, trending towards good (as I have mentioned before) and the plateaus of improvement are the hardest times for me. That's where the doubts really creep in.
But I am happy to say, that I have passed through another milestone and it has given me renewed commitment, hope and ENERGY.
AND I am VERY glad to say that THIS time the results ARE NOT from a temporarily renewed burst of beneficial bone marrow production immediately after going off immune-suppressing drugs, as my new rheumaltologist suggested my initial improvements were. Because I haven't taken any pill for this except my B12 sublingual since the second week in January 2011.
So that doubt is off the worry-list, at the very least.
I don't have too much to report, only......
I HAVE REACHED A NEW LEVEL OF PAIN REDUCTION!!!!!
I am SO happy. Yet another step forward.
I have some hard times on this diet. I question whether I am just perpetuating a denial about my illness and am being foolish to pursue this WOE to help and heal my arthritis.
Usually these doubts happen at night, when I am tired and cranky, and lead to a little bit of insomnia. Nothing huge, but I am someone who falls asleep in seconds, so worrying in bed for an extra 40 minutes seems endless. I know from my husband, who TRULY suffers from days-without-sleep-insomnia, that this is small change, but still, it keeps me up.
The changes are slow for me. Initially dramatic, then slow ups and downs, trending towards good (as I have mentioned before) and the plateaus of improvement are the hardest times for me. That's where the doubts really creep in.
But I am happy to say, that I have passed through another milestone and it has given me renewed commitment, hope and ENERGY.
AND I am VERY glad to say that THIS time the results ARE NOT from a temporarily renewed burst of beneficial bone marrow production immediately after going off immune-suppressing drugs, as my new rheumaltologist suggested my initial improvements were. Because I haven't taken any pill for this except my B12 sublingual since the second week in January 2011.
So that doubt is off the worry-list, at the very least.