lynns wrote:Congrats on getting thru it. That's a big accomplishment....and stayed on plan. Those times are tough to stay on plan. So happy for you. Yes, rest!
Thank you Lynns. I really appreciate the support
Anyway, the past 48 hours have been a blur. Definitely not the healthiest life decisions but nothing too horrible. Yesterday I honestly forget what I ate but it was all compliant (i've noticed that's a term we use here haha) until dinnertime, when I had a few pieces of fried fish. It was part of a graduation dinner and I don't have a great reason for eating it. I just felt like it. I also went out to a lot of different bars last night with my friends, and had a good amount of beer and wine. I don't drink hard alcohol because i've had scary experiences with blacking out and i don't like how it can hit you all at once. So the extra alcohol calories were not awesome, but I very rarely drink and I think it's okay to celebrate occasionally.
Overall, nothing too bad considering the circumstances. The problem was that after coming home and staying up really late talking to my best friend, I only got two hours of sleep before waking up at 6am today, the actual day of my graduation. All the graduates in my house drank mimosas on the roof in the morning before going to the ceremony. Mine was mostly just orange juice since i wanted to be healthy again after the alchohol last night. I also made a bowl of oatmeal early in the morningl, then had 1 and half clif bars throughout the 5 hour event. Had rice, beans, and some fruit in the afternoon then went out to a fancy dinner with my friend and her family.
As always, the social eating/pressure was tough. And probably because i was tired, I just gave in today. It was a fixed menu anyway, and i barely know her family, so I would have felt really uncomfortable asking for special different food. I decided to just give myself permission to eat intuitively like a normal person, whatever looked good at dinner. So I had some bread, kale salad (had cheese and anchovy sauce) halibut, chard, and fried potatoes. Also had little bites of a few desserts since it was a sample tray.
So, overall, ate fish and dairy which I didn't feel too awesome about, especially because it didn't even taste that good. At the end of the dinner, I was full but not as satisfied as I would have felt eating a big bowl of rice and beans. I'm glad I didn't let this become a binge, and that I didn't have the mentality of "now that i've messed up today, might as well go crazy"
I just plan on going back to normal tomorrow after a long night of sleep.