This is my third journal try. The other two tries are out there somewhere and I don't need them anymore.
I thought I would try yet again, to be more accountable. Sometimes it works, sometimes not. I have a fear of total commitment, I know that now. A mind thing. I think if I take it one hour at a time, then one day at a time that I can make some good progress. I have to clarify when I say I don't do the plan totally perfect, and fall off plan, I mean to say that my off plan lasts maybe a day or two at the most, but I always shake off the crumbs and start again! I explained this on the thread that blondie started, wondering why some of us can't stay with it. My idea of staying with it is when you do it totally perfect. Not if you slip up and have a soy yogurt. OR a bite of cheese. OR some oil in the gravy even if it's just a spoon. Others on here will say that's not going off plan, going off plan is pigging out on SAD food. Or scarfing down a bag of chips. (i love those) We each have our own idea's about things for sure. I feel guilty if I mess up. But always crawl back on the potato wagon and try again.
I have been making slow and steady progress for awhile. The weight is not coming off like it used to, due to not being able to be outside and walking or biking yet. I don't know whether my left knee will ever heal up enough to do all that again so someday when I win the lottery, I will be able to have the knee surgery. Until then, I have to learn to live with it. Because not having any insurance at all, not being able to afford insurance kind of puts a damper on things.
When doing my video workouts inside, I go along pretty much ok for awhile, and then my left leg almost goes out from under me. It buckles without warning. So I make sure a chair is nearby on the left so I can try to make some progress. I don't need to be falling yet again! As I sure hate that! And more pain comes with that!
I know many on here say they can just eat MWL and the weight melts off without exercise, but for me, it works best with exercise. Ever since my 40's, it's been extra difficult for the weight to melt away, even if strictly doing MWL. I have not been following MWL strictly, I would say it's 60% that, and 40% regular program. So I need the exercise, and it gets things moving inside, which we all need to be healthy!
So for the good news, here is my food I ate today:
Breakfast: 2 peaches. Coffee with maple sugar.
Lunch: Brown rice with my homemade red lentil loaf.
Dinner: A big bowl of steamed brussel sprouts.
Snack: A yellow apple pear. (yellow ones are more apple-y, which is juicier. Brown ones are more peary-y.)
I have been forcing myself to go to sleep earlier and getting up much earlier. I read something somewhere that said the most optimal time for the body to heal is between 10p.m and 6a.m., so we should all try to sleep during that time. I don't know if that is true or not, but I will try anything almost once.
I am working towards earlier times but at least I now get up several hours earlier in the mornings now. I had to stay up for 2 whole days to get this far, and believe me, it's so much harder to try to reset when you are older. But once you do it, it feels better. It takes 100 days to form a habit, so I should be ok by Dec.1. Then when new years eve comes, it should wreck it for sure!