Hey connie, your journal is not boring and its good to see you still working on eating well. You've done well for yourself. I had an almond butter/bagel binge this past week myself. I try to keep potatoes handy at all times and that helps when I'm busy. This Spring and Summer have me more active than I have been in a long time. Being lighter gives you so much more energy. My son got rid of the cookies and things he had around in my pantry and he laughed when I told him that I can't stand those sorts of temptations hanging around. I am eating a lot of fresh fruit as it is and I'm supposed to be on the MWL, or that's what I'd prefer. What I do and what I want aren't always in alignment. What's so sad is how much gathering with others is around unhealthy food. Now I have to invite people here...so please feel welcome to come visit sometime. We will eat very well.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/28585497@N ... 631038242/Last Thursday I went to the vegan doctor. She spent almost 2 hours with me, which is a real rarity these days! I went to her b/c of the depression and anxiety, which has lifted somewhat over the past week and is almost non-existent this weekend...I am not sure how I feel about this doc. She is a nice person and I like that she believes in the McDougall program (and follows it herself).
That's interesting. Right now I have no insurance so I don't even go to my own long term doctor. He's helped me through back surgery and various other things and I'm not sure I could even locate a vegan doctor. But, do you take her suggestions into consideration then make up your own mind? I'm stubborn like that. I kind of like that idea about eating more in the morning and less at night but I dunno how important it is. Maybe its more important until we get firmly into this lifestyle without too many hang-ups. My friends mother has diabetes and she sticks to three meals with no or little snacks. I sort of wonder if that's wise, but I'm not a doctor.
...sleep study (I have sleep apnea, but haven't had a study several years, so adjustments may be necessary)
Will that lessen or go away if you get closer to ideal weight?
I think your shift work is pressure upon pressure, indeed. However that's your job and you'll get to figuring out how to deal with it sooner rather than later, one can hope. I had always been a night person but this Spring, sort of starting back in Costa Rica even (since I would be AWAKE at 5:30 am every morning without an alarm), I have become a morning person and I get up by 6:30 to water the garden and tend to the plants. I am loving the sun and getting outside before it gets too hot. The lure and pull of the computer is always there, yet. So, things can change, just sayin.
I'd like to hear what you think about that depression program. I know that when I exercise regularly that I feel happier. When I did the Seagull Century
http://www.seagullcentury.org/ I could feel the flooding of good feelings every day for at least a week after that. But I hope you find a way to navigate through those dark feelings as well as addressing your negative self talk. Both are big challenges, I'm sure.
Sorry to go on and on, but I wanted to get back to you, but I've been too busy, and tired, and sometimes sick.
You mean my dogs finally getting even since he's been blamed all these years (my dog is going on 14 this year---I'm going to take some pictures tomorrow and share them. I love this old guy!)?