by kirstykay » Mon Apr 05, 2010 12:53 pm
Kelly,
I can identify with your issues about food. I've asked those same questions...why? what's wrong with me? is there some deep dark secret from my past that I need to figure out? How come I can have success in every area of my life except my weight????? I could go on.
I'm pretty new at this, but what worked for me was making a committment to MWL for 30 days 100%-no excuses. I literally said "NO" outloud to myself when I felt the strong urge to go off plan. I literally did not allow myself to "cheat"...for 30 days. I told myself that in 30 days, if I wanted to, I could "cheat." There were days when I wasn't sure I was going to make it...but I did. Everytime I got close to eating something non-MWL, I told myself that I REALLY didn't want to start all over again, and it's only 30 days...I can do anything for that long. It was hard. Some days were harder than others.
But then something amazing happened! My cravings went away! That strong, loud voice in my head telling me to eat junk got softer and weaker over those 30 days. Soft and weak enough for me to ignore. Some days I am still aware of that voice (today is one of those days) but I just eat something that's good for me, like a potato, and tell that voice it's not the boss of me anymore! It doesn't have any power over me. Now, I don't eat junk because I don't want it! You have no idea what a miracle that is...or maybe you do. It just isn't worth it to me anymore. I'm actually losing weight! I've gone down an entire size already!
IMHO, don't try to figure out the why before you do the plan. But, there are some helpful books you can read that may help you along the way: Doug Lisle's book The Pleasure Trap was really helpful. Also, I'm in the process of reading Addiction and Grace by Gerald G. May. It explains the power of addiction and the relationship between addiction and spiritual awareness. I'm finding it extremely helpful, and it is helping me be kinder to myself. I believe food addiction is just as much of a chemical addiction as alcohol or drugs, and therefore needs to be treated with the same abstinence mentality as other substances. I have found that the MWL plan is the best way to break the physical addiction. I have never had success in previous attempts to do that with any other plan because, as Dr. McD says, "moderation kills."
I wish you much success in your journey!
Blessings,
Kirsty
"Remember, It's the food." ~Dr. McDougall