Ras and the Ks, I'm so happy to see you! I read your journal Kirstykay! Yes Yes Yes! So what if it's taking us years to finally get here? Wish it hadn't but I know we did some harm reduction and hung around enough not to get totally lost. I can't believe how happy I am to see all of you. kk, you are married! Wow!!! I hear you voice over the years about relationships and I know you work hard for good relationships. He must be a special guy to have won you over! So glad he is on board because I know it will make it easier for you.
My bro seems serious about this. I'm trying not to overwhelm him. I wish we lived closer so I could give him food. I'm thinking about buying/making spice and broth blends and sauces for him to make it easier.
Now about me because being the care taker that I am I will use everyone's problems not to focus on my own. I'm still struggling some but the struggle is less and less. I seem to be settling in. I have been avoiding doing much for church or volunteering because this year is going to be about my health. I am cooking alot not just for myself but for others. I'm ok with that because it keeps me focused on the health. Exercise has been slowly coming. This weekend I dug up 2 flower beds and I'm sore as hell in some weird places.
. oh yah and the regular beer after work? That has had to stop. I have realized I do that because I can't give myself permission to shut down and relax unless I am buzzed. I've been practicing being lazy without alcohol to spur me on. Nice, eh? I still will go to my seestor's and have martini's and watch Trailer Park Boys and such. I just know that alcohol can't be a regular part of my life. I'd rather eat food.
I've been listening to Chef AJ alot and I do things she recommends like veggies for breakfast. The other day though she said you should eat so many that you are full and have to wait to get hungry again for your starch. It put me over the edge a bit because I don't have that kind of time in the morn. So I've been eating alot of veggies throughout the day and for breakfast when I'm hungry often it's oats and a nice amount of greens or broc. I do see a difference in my cravings when I have those greens on board. Plus I like to think about bathing my endothelial cells (sp?).
My daughter is home for a repair to that former surgury in Thailand, if ya remember. It's today and I'm not real worried. Just making her eat good food so she heals better. Of course. What else would I be doing? i am making her congee and a kind of unchicken noodle soup.
Ok that's all I got.