I just joined this site in the past month and have mostly just been lurking. I'm loving the idea of a journal here, specifically for this topic so that I can write without fear of judgment from others (mostly the 'Ya gotta have protein!??!' crowd). No need for me to go into that one, here.
I quit eating red meat, chicken and fish almost a year ago, and suddenly found my body running like it should (sparing you the TMI details). So I am never going back to eating meat. However, I have still struggled over the past few months with emotional eating, or disordered eating, reaching for the sugary or fatty items. As a result, here I am in my late forties with a much older-looking body and a good extra 25 lb, which I need to get rid of.
I'm one of the (sadly many) women who went through the 'count all the calories' nonsense of the 80s and 90s, and fell into a disordered relationship with food as a result, gaining back the pounds and more along the way. After the past three years of making a conscious effort, I think I am finally free and clear of the urge to control my food and count things. Counting calories, fat grams, carbs, etc., just send me over the edge and out to the store for junk food.
I have had a recent run of about three weeks that seemed like I had caught and was riding a thermal wind, like the birds do before a storm. I was eating WFPB effortlessly! My body was righting itself effortlessly! My mind was calm, and finally free of the food-struggle. It shouldn't be a struggle.
Unfortunately that little spurt was broken (probably by PMS and work-related stress/depression) and I lapsed back into anguished eating (best way I can describe it).
Well the time has come for me to do this for myself, to honor myself and to follow through with this commitment. And really, all I need to do is eat all I want of these health-giving foods until I'm no longer hungry. It's pretty simple really. I have become much better at regarding all my comfort and junk-food as non-food items.
I do need to watch out with sites dedicated to a specific way of eating though, as I find people's daily food lists triggering. I am trying to get to the point where I can see these food mentions as ideas for what I can eat, not desperate proof that we are being 'good' or 'bad'. I have to stay away from the philosophy of 'good' or 'bad' foods as it trips something in my head that sends me off the rails. I don't understand it, can't reason my way around it, just need to avoid it.
So I think I may use this space for brain-storming, and perhaps a little extra accountability to myself.
I'm ready for my body to do what it knows how to do already: heal itself. My part is giving it the correct nourishment.