I was very frustrated at a lack of weight loss initially. But, it seems to have come around. I'm not losing as fast as I'd like, but that's okay. It's my own fault and I must be patient as my body readjusts and sheds this extra baggage and protection I've created for myself.
There is so much happening in your life already, please don't worry about weight loss or the absence of it. You are learning a new way of eating. You are saying goodbye to an old way of eating. You are learning to think and do positive things. You are learning to let go of and say goodbye to negative things. That's a lot to keep your mind busy, you don't need the extra burden of having to get instant results. You have to focus on making changes you can live with for the rest of your life. I honestly think that one of the best things I did for myself when I started to change my diet was to not worry at all about weight loss. I knew the loss would come if I could learn to eat healthy, so that is what I focused all my energy on.
I'm sure it's been written before, but I'm living in a caccoon. It's there to protect me from the outside world. As long as I have it, I don't have to face the world as just me. I get to put this barrier up as a reason people treat me the way they might. I have this protection to give me an excuse not to do things I might be uncomfortable with. I am ready to take it off and live life on my own now. I don't need this protectionism anymore.
A butterfly emerges from it's cocoon fairly quickly then moves on with it's life, never needing it again. I think for us it's not such a quick process. We peek out and watch, build up our courage, step out for a brief period, then rush back to safety. It can be a long, slow, and scary process. But wanting to not need that cocoon, wanting to be on the other side of it... that's a first step!!
I'm proud of you!