Today, I am very unhappy. Yesterday I got on the scales to find a 3/4 lb gain. I was a bit down about that and I was very hungry all day too.
Breakfast, 2 pieces wholemeal toast with sugar-free jam on.
10.30 porridge made with water and some sweetcorn.
Dinner, brown rice with chopped up salad veg, some soy sauce and vinegar.
4.30, Thick piece wholemeal toast with some mashed potatoes on from last night.
Tea, home made chips with just a couple of sprays of fry-light, a home made burger and baked beans.
I always walk the dog for an hour every day.
I spent my spare time yesterday reading journals on this forum and also watching videos on the McDougall Youtube channel. I did note that one bloke who had attended the McDougall weekend said that he had put on weight to start with and Dr MCD said that people went to the center and were given gourmet meals 4 times a day and could eat what they liked. I really haven't eaten any fat the last few days and I'm piling on the pounds and I can't believe that I could be the only one that can eat that much.
This morning I weighed myself and another 2 lbs have gone on. I feel really fat and bloated and very down. I'm now 4 1/2 lbs up from when I started 6 days ago. I should have known. I tried Slimming World once and their green plan was similar to this one, eat as much of the starches as you like with veg and fruit and I never lost anything there even though I stuck to the plan.
1. To face facts, I can't stand to get up one more morning and have gained on the scales.
2. I obviously can't eat as many starches as I want and lose weight, even if everyone else seems to be able to.
3. I want to stay on this plan and so am going to have to change things to restrict calories and food volume.
I read the journals of successful McDougallers and noted 3 things. They stick to 3 regular meals a day, sometimes with planned snacks. They eat much less flour products and eat a lot less than me in general. So, I can try that, but I will certainly be on a restrictive diet plan then, but I think I'm kidding myself to think that I can carry on eating the volume of any food I want and lose weight, even if it's fat free.
Tomorrow night I'm going to a concert, I should be looking forward to it, but I don't think I have anything I can squeeze into, certainly not the top I bought specifically at Christmas and I'll be the only fat person in our party. Now I'm completely dreading the whole event. I just can't let this happen again.
So, I'm going to try these regular meals and snacks, count calories and find something that works. This morning I bought 2 books the McDougall 15 minutes cookbook and glancing through it I am glad it has serving suggestions and they are a hell of a lot smaller than I would have served myself. So I can use that as a guide. Also I bought the Starch Solution and had to laugh at the first few lines which said something about picking up the book because what I'm doing at the minute isn't working, when what I'm doing is the instructions from the 12 steps plan.
I am sorry I sound so grumpy today, but I am feeling bad and am struggling to get motivated for the day ahead and the prospect of restriction seems to fill me with panic before I've even got going. This is my own fault, when the doc said "eat as much as you like" he's probably never met anyone as greedy as me.