Does that sound positive? What if I have doubts inside? I have felt committed and been positive before. What is going to make it different this time? What makes it finally click? I have a few ideas on what will make it different for me this time.
1) Failing to plan. Sometimes I just get tired of planning, shopping, and cooking. Whine.
2) Finding a different way to deal with my emotions. I got off track last year with a family crisis. I need to figure out a way to deal with these (since it will be ongoing) especially when it involves going out of town.
3) Another problem from prior times, was that everytime I start McDougalling, I have increased joint pain - so this time I am starting with an elimination diet. I am only on day two and finding it very difficult so I am already concerned about compliance.
I feel uncomfortable about journaling but wanted to document how I am feeling, physically and mentally, so if I get discouraged I can look back and maybe see some improvement.
I had allergy (food sensitivity testing) last year and found out that I test positive for sensitivities to egg, wheat, muchrooms, garlic, w/b pepper, walnuts, almonds, sesame, tuna (no problem), carrot, kidney and white beans, and pineapple. In the past when I have switched from SAD (vegetarian) to McDougall I have not really had an increase in the most of the above food items. The ones that do increase are the beans, carrots, and garlic. So I don't know that is these foods that are causing me problems. That leaves the nightshades (which do increase in consumption), corn (which also increases), and citrus (which does not). Since I don't have any idea what is causing me the problems and increased pain has been one of the reasons for going off the plan in the past, I decided on starting with an elimination diet this time.
What I am trying to heal is arthritis pain in the knees that make it very hard to get up from sitting in a chair or going upstairs, bursitis in my hip that has been keeping me from sleeping on one side for five years, plantar fasciitis (2 years now), back pain, and tendonitis and calcuim deposits when I exercise. I also have pain in the butt, that may or may not be piriformis syndrome (doctor doesn't know), as well as trigger point pain that was diagnosed as fibromyalgia (which I don't think I have). Some of these may be caused by leaky gut, or food sensitivities, and all are affected by my being overweight.
B-Cooked fruit soup with tapioca (apple, pear, blueberries)
L-Yam and steamed broccoli
D-Rice with cooked spinach and celery (tiny bit of salt)
B-Leftover rice w/ spinach and celery
S-Smoothie made with cooked fruit soup (apple, pear, blueberries, 4-5 blackberries, 2 peach slices, no tapioca-yuk) blended with spinach and ice. (I know, I know, better to chew my food)
D-Rice with zucchini and broccoli (tiny bit of salt)
S- 1/2 yam
We'll see how this goes.........
Edited to change food eaten.