I feel like I've gotten a slower start so far this year than I expected, but it's still a pretty good start. I've only lost a few pounds, yet I feel like I'm succeeding because I'm making it a lifestyle change. My husband says that he's proud of me and has even been eating many of my vegan meals. He loves bean enchiladas that I made a few weeks ago, as well as a tofu lasagna that I made just last night. I don't know that he'll stop eating dairy and meat for good, but I think that he's much more supportive of my lifestyle change than I've ever thought. Just a week ago he told my mother-in-law about this lifestyle change.
Now that more people know about me, I feel like it definitely gives me more motivation to do better. Even though it's more about being healthy on the inside than just losing weight, I do want and need to lose weight.
With that being said, I know that I have a lot to do. I need to be more consistent in exercising. I also need to stop snacking more often and be more conscientious about my portions. The biggest factor right now that I think continues to hinder me is my flour and sugar intake. I know that a teaspoon of sugar in oatmeal isn't the worst thing, but I think for me it doesn't really stop there. And I do like whole wheat pasta and tend to eat quite a lot of it even though I usually only eat it about once a week. And don't even get me started about bread, I love it.
So, the next week I'm taking sugar and flour out of my diet and I'm trying to stick more closely to MWL. Which means, i need to stop avocadoes, peanut butter, and olives. I tend to feed those a lot to my 1-year old and 2-year old because I think my younger ones need fat. But I certainly don't need fat!
This week, I'm starting off at 161.8, and I hope that by next week, I'll weigh less! It's that simple...but it's also hard too!
At church today, I was really inspired by our mission's pastor who spoke about Jim Elliot, a missionary who died in the 1950's who was savagely killed by the tribe of Auca indians whom he tried to reach out in love. Interestingly enough, I've heard his story many times and met his wife, Elisabeth Elliot. But I've never heard that he had a gone on him and could've killed the savage indians as they attacked him. He told the other missionaries that he'd never use his gun against the indians because although Jim said he was prepared to meet his maker, but the Indians weren't prepared.
I thought that was a very profound thought.
Now how does that relate to MacDougal diet and where I'm at now? I'm glad you asked! It has everything to do with it!
How can I be the mother and wife that God wants me to be with these extra 52 pounds that I'm carrying around?
How can I have the energy that I need to have if I want to do the things that God wants me to do?
Oh, God can work through me in spite of my struggles. He does all the time! And He accepts me and loves me no matter what. But, why don't I surrender my addictions and struggles with food to him?
If I do want to be like Jim Elliot and be willing to sacrifice my life to God, isn't it worth it to sacrifice my favorite mocha? Or, my italian sausage lasagna?
Also, is my bread my god? Or, is God my bread?
My prayer for this week is that I will make the right choice and make God my love, instead of food my love.
Won't you join me?