I got my exercise in today and it's a big, big thing for me! It's just walking for so many people, but for me it's HUGE. I read FrozenVeg's Star testimonial and she talked about the pain she suffered before the weight was off. I completely felt (literally) everything she described. Especially, the trip up her own stairs. I've been there too. Sadly, I am sure some even have had worse mobility issues than hers or mine. Still, I am so heartened reading her story now, because these weight induced obstacles and pain are a thing of the past for her:)
In my past, I've been in wheel chairs, on crutches and using canes, on bad days I still have to use a cane. That's because I seriously crushed my ankle in my 20's, really badly. I am lucky to have any mobility in that ankle at all. Once I was mended ( that is a year of operations and physical therapy later) I was back to backpacking, day hiking, cross country skiing and all the activities I love.
Then I got fibromyalgia: the weight seems to have come along with that. Anytime anyone suggests, that if I just walked a bit daily, the weight would fall off, it just makes me internally boil. I was never a couch potato, people assume anyone who is overweight is - like we are all lazy and don't want to do any physical activities at all.
I think these assumptions are the hardest thing of all for me to deal with, harder even then the pain. Physically I can walk, mostly unassisted, but the pain during and worse yet in the evenings, when I am in bed trying to sleep is so bad that I can't sleep one bit. So people see me try sometimes, but they really don't know the price I pay for making any effort.
I have been doing non weight bearing aerobic swimming a week, 3 to 5 hours of it, and still the weight remained. That activity out weighs walking by a long shot in calories expended and I have not lost but ten pounds. It does help with the pain though and probably my numbers health wise would be worse without it, but honestly I am an outdoors type and I find this exercise pretty boring.
I have gotten some of the weight off. I was 250 before two years of trying with national weight loss organization. There as often as I lost, I gained the same 10 pounds over and over again. Recently, I did try another vegan diet and did loose pretty steadily another 10 lbs, but I need the support of this program to stick with it. I think taking this 20 pounds off helps quite a bit and I do feel more mobile and like I am experiencing less fibro pain. I hesitate to say this though, because that fluctuates terribly and things like good weather this week could also be a huge contributor to how good I feel.
Yet, I have walked three days this week, not far, 1.5 miles. I used to do 3 before work everyday in the summer and 5 with my best friend fall and spring, moving exercise indoors for the winters though. Even my best friend, nudges me to get out and walk and I just can't get her to understand that it hasn't been possible. Frankly, it's something that has brought me to tears a few times because it's just so awful to be this incredibly limited person.
But today I walked on an actual trail in my town; through woods, horse pastures and along a creek. Not far, but even if it's not something that I'll be able to do -- say next week -- I did it today! This was the first time since probably 2003, that I walked briskly on a trail and didn't immediately experience pain and know I'd seriously be paying for it as the day progressed. Not that the pain has gone away or the fatigue, but it hasn't interfered with my sleep, which is my biggest fear. I still have had insomnia this week, but not excruciating night pain which is much worse for me.
I know it's important for me to put this all down, because I can see in my writings today that I am afraid that I am hitting that threshold of 218 that has been the deal breaker for so long and also the fear that this walking thing is just a blip and won't be something I can do in future.
And I am saying all this because even if I have these set backs, I WILL NOT abandon the program and loose track of the big picture on my health. As long as there is any number going down where it should be - I will be tenacious and good spirited (mostly, hehehe)!
My resolve on that is due, in no small part, to the folks on this website. There are other people who have done it and are doing it and demons were and are fought by all of us, and I am REALLY grateful for the stories I have read this first week