This morning is a new day and this week's stress has got me thinking about my own goals. The last few days I've been writing in my novel in the evenings and I've really enjoyed it. It's gotten me back in touch with what really matters to me. Yesterday after my "rant" about my work, I wrote and it helped me to forget.
I know that one thing I need to start doing is taking care of myself, physically, emotionally, and mentally. It's very difficult for me because I was raised by a wonderful mother and an egotistical father (we're talking beyond just being selfish - we're talking the certifiable personality disorder type of egotism) so I observed at home how my mom always put his needs above her own (mainly to avoid conflict and also because it was easier for her to deal with life that way - I am happy to report that she has, since my dad retired, been standing up to him and taking time for her own things). I think this is one reason why I get so stressed. I am more worried about my students' needs than my own. While I don't want to get to the point where I don't give a damn whether the students pass or fail, I also don't want to forgo my own needs banging my head against the wall for them. There has to be a balance.
Diet-wise, I have been doing pretty good but not great. Like last night I had some cake and some coffee with a little milk in it. Today is a new day and a new approach. I am going to commit to be 100% McDougall compliant for one month (until my second blood test) and take it one month at a time. I think the idea of a lifetime commitment is overwhelming to me (the idea of it, not the actual fact of it). So taking it one month at a time might be a better approach.
I am also continuing to do some walking (from the bus stop to home in the evenings when I come home from school) and add an early morning walk as well as writing in the morning. And also focus on my studies, which are very important to me right now. I've also been reaching out to friends here in Israel so having some kind of social life again will be nice.
Morning: oatmeal with a little soy milk, honey, and cinnamon
Afternoon: Frozen veggies microwaved with a little low-sodium veggie boullion for flavor (they have that here in Israel) and brown rice
Mid-Afternoon: baked chickpeas and grapes
Evening: mashed potatoes and a salad with corn
Night: All bran cereal (I like to munch on it as is, without any kind of milk
) and pumpernickle bread with jam