Day 2 Red Potatoes (115.
Well I dropped IMMEDIATELY down again after one day on potatoes. Again, weight fluctuates, especially with women, and tomorrow's my weigh-in day so that will be the kicker. I will say all day I felt much cleaner and lighter. My stomach was flatter, I had more energy, and this is in comparison to the brown rice Mini. It seems to me that a potato Mary's Mini is MUCH more effective for my body than brown rice. Brown rice feels heavier yet is not as satiating to me as potatoes are. Interesting.
I've also at some point gotta start weaning off the coffee again. It's incredibly difficult to maintain steady energy with theatre at night after a full time day job, I'm so exhausted in the morning and I know that if I don't have ANY caffeine I will be a mess. At the same time, I am definitely prone to anxiety so it's either feel like a horrible zombie or be relatively alert for most of the morning but have low grade to rampant anxiety (usually just low grade, I've been pretty good about keeping my coffee amount at a very specific level).
I'm already an anxious person, but I also believe the heightened anxiety, at least this morning and yesterday, is definitely situational. I'm getting together with an ex-boyfriend tomorrow night to just catch up and it's the first time we'll have seen each other since the break up (3 months ago). Meanwhile, that MORNing, I will be parting with a gentleman that I've been dating for a bit who is moving to Germany, effectively ending THAT relationship too. A lot of losses this year. I'm happy, and am steadily progressing in my theatre career this year which is great. But dating-wise my life is just a huge ball of mess, and honestly I know that this has contributed to not just the anxiety but my difficulty in avoiding dealing with my emotions by abusing food in some manner, and when I do that i just feel sick. I'm getting better everyday though
And McDougalling sure does help.
Sending out positive energy and thoughts to all of you today!
EDIT: Eesh. They bought us lunch at work and bought me a vegan wrap and I ate it. I mean, it was delicious. And it didn't taste too oily. Or not even really oily at all? I'm really sensitive to oils. But I wouldn't be surprised if there WAS oil in it. So today's a calorie counting day just to play it safe. I looked up the vegan wrap online. High caloric content but breakfast was really light, and dinner will be too. It'll be ok. No reason to sabotage the rest of the day over oil anxiety.