Wow, what a busy week! My brother-in-law got married on Sunday to a girl from Guatamala and her family came up from Guatamala. On Monday, we had a huge party at our house of about 25 people or so. And half of them didn't speak English, only Spanish.
Unfortunately, I made some poor choices. We went to a German restaurant and I had a somewhat healthy vegetable dish, but I ate some butter with bread. The next day I ate only the vegetable side dishes at the wedding, but I had a cupcake. And I didn't eat any oil or fats except for the butter at the restaurant. Neither did I eat any meat
But...I hate it that I had some cheese pizza tonight on the last night that my in-laws are here. The sad thing is that I ate two bowl fulls of salad with balsamic vinegar and was completely full. But it was that inner voice yelling inside me to eat the pizza. Probably the pizza was my very worst choice this. And now I'm sick, sick, sick, sick because I haven't eaten any cheese like this for 6 months or more!
Thankfully, I held my tongue all week even though it was really hard with my in-laws. Last week, I had a respiratory infection and a fever when I was cleaning our house to get ready for company. Needless to say, I scrubbed down every inch of our house except for my master bedroom's shower. And what do you think my mother-in-law would criticize us for? Of course, the master bedroom shower because she said it was dirty. We didn't expect her to use our bathroom, and we certainly didn't expect her to complain about it. But she has a very critical spirit. So, my husband and I bit our tongue. When she told us we should get down on our hands and knees and scrub the kitchen floor, we bit our tongue as well. Eventually, my husband did confront her and tell her that we're not going to get down on our hands and knees to clean our floor and that we don't have a lot of time to clean the shower.
So, I am at the end of a good, but challenging week for my relationships, food, and overall emotional well being. I am planning on just praying, not holding resentment against my in-laws for their criticism, and I'm going to try to love them unconditionally. If I need to, I will gently stand my ground with them because I don't think that it's healthy to just let them walk all over me. But, I am proud of myself for not exploiding with anger or sobbing into a puddle of tears because I feel imperfect or that I'll never get her approval. I do pray that she becomes more understanding of the situation that we're in with two young kids: (2 and 1 year old). If anything, she embarassed herself at complaining at us (what kind of guest complains when they go to someone's house?)
As far as weight goes, I'm very scared to death to stand on the scale. I wouldn't say that I ever stuffed myself or overeat this week, but I indulged in way too many non-mwl food items. At the same time, I am excited that last Wednesday my physical went well and my doctor was very excited about my cholesterol being so low and that my vitamin b levels were very high. He says that he wants to encourage me to lose 10 more pounds and I'll be in a healthy bmi range (141 for me at 5'3''). He gave me an ekg even and basically said that I was in pristine health. I am going to shoot for this goal of getting down to 141 and then keep going until I get to at least 120 or 115 at the lowest.
Starting tomorrow morning, I'm going to do Mary's mini fast. I've thought through my diet the last few months and I really have done the best when I've done the Mary's mini fast. I'm going to focus on potatoes. I'll add some vegetables and fruit to round out the mary's mini. I'm hoping to stick with this diet until June 19th, which is my birthday.
I hope to post tomorrow and give an update as to how tomorrow goes. I'm slightly nervous about Memorial Day weekend, but since my hubby and I already indulged too much this week, we're hoping to stick to the straight and narrow these next few weeks.
Oh, and my in-laws did bring at least two sodium nitrate laden hams and left them in our refrigerator along with juice, sugary jam, trans-fat laden butter cookies...hmmm I think my coworkers might be getting these on Tuesday!