Good day today!
I ate rice and peas for breakfast (I saw an interesting post at a blog for living super frugal, where a commenter mentioned cooking peas til mushy, then mashing them into paste, then over cooked brown rice, and sprinkled with curry powder...I think it sounds really good, and will try it myself soon)
Lunch was the curried beans over rice with peas on top.
when I got home, I added a tsp or so of yellow curry paste to the bean recipe, because I noticed it wasn't very flavorful at lunch.
and then ate a bowl of rice with the curried beans over the top. And roasted cauliflower. I'm gonna roast another head, in time for my daughter when she comes home from youth group. She loves the stuff.
This board helped me a lot today. I visited a lot of journals and said hello and dropped some encouragement, and when I was done with about a half dozen or so such visits, I felt REALLY GOOD. Confident and capable of doing this.
There were a few moments during work when I was tempted to nibble something, but I just didn't.
WHAT IS DIFFERENT? Is it SERIOUSLY because I am no longer premenstrual> REALLY? oh ferpetesakes. gimme a break. But a week ago, I was eating everything in sight, and then looking for more. I was out of control, and couldn't have resisted temptation if they'd paid me money. I was even eating stuff that didn't taste good to me.
Today, and yesterday, and I think Sunday too...all good. I walk right past the still very visible and very available junk at work, stuff that I was wading right into last week.
so, what will I do next month when THAT time of month is on its way? What strategy will I have in place, that will get me through the FREAK OUT MUNCHIES FROM HELL
? because I WILL have them again. and I don't want to repeat that pattern. i want to do next month DIFFERENT than this month.
I'm reading through some of the toxic hunger/true hunger threads here and there. What I was experiencing in the three weeks prior to this month's period, was definitely toxic hunger. I knew I wasn't hungry, but I was putting groceries down my neck non-stop. I didn't even like the taste of some of the stuff I was eating, but I still ate it.
well, anyway. i just don't want a repeat. Have to think about what I will do ahead of time, to prevent myself going that direction. It's stupidity. It is out of control. I don't like it.
One of the reasons why I never got deeply into drugs was how out of control I felt when under the influence. "what if I never come out of this? I'll be THIS WAY FOREVER!" and that really scared me, so I just quit without any problem. I don't like feeling out of control, and I hated it when I was doing it in the last week of Oct/first week of Nov. I'm positive the "three pieces of candy" that I ate on Oct 29 were the trigger for my two week binge. So, I can safely say that I mustn't eat candy. Not even one taste. NO SUGAR.
Maybe I'll adapt Mike T's "no oil" rule to include "no sugar." I will look at a label, and if it has added sugar, I will NOT eat it. Ha! I guess Reese's Miniatures have sugar in their ingredients
so I don't eat sugar, and therefore...
Oh, phooey. I know I won't go a lifetime NEVER eating Reese's Miniatures. But not today.
and now I'm gonna stop talking about it, because talking about it has me craving...REESE'S MINIATURES. Sheesh.
gonna treat myself to popcorn. sayonara.