So after listening to Doug I realize I had a tough last week or two or three. First I FINALLY got a yard sale going. I have wanted to do that since before my first back surgery and somehow I managed to find enough people to help and strength and the planets aligned right
and it happened. But that meant for three days I got next to no sleep and we carted out at least 50 boxes and tons of other things. Can you imagine how exhausted I was? Well it made me think of Ruths description of going through the finish line of her runs. I literally could barely move another inch when I grabbed that last handful of stuff to take in for the next yard sale. Then I helped two friends, for mothers day, by mowing their yards. One yard was foot tall grass and I didn't finish it all. Then I injured my forearm. So I got behind in washing, cleaning, and daily tasks.
So what I'm saying is that I've pushed myself to the max and had some tough times and stretching myself past my ability can lead to weak moments, stressful moments and not being able to figure out how to properly handle myself. So, no matter what the excuses I know what I have to do about 1) the temptation of those Indian foods that are not acceptable and 2) how to fix a monthly treat....IF i'm on track and sticking to eating low caloric density foods.
The next thing I'll work on is carrying a notebook so I can write down everything that goes into my mouth. This will make it clear to myself what I'm doing and examine it closely.
The last thing I need to do is to take an hour walk every day. If I'm ever going to be healthy I have to do that for myself. I have been rearranging priorities and I'm getting better at thinking about me first. If I fall apart then everything around me will too. I owe it to myself to be my best and take care of me before I can really care for anyone or thing else.
I'll make a daily reminder of my priorities, meals and "to do" list and prepare how my day will proceed. I was feeling so great and I've had a few important set backs but all is not lost.