Hi KMD and Debable. Thank you both sooo much for your thoughtful and helpful comments.
KMD, it helps me to know it gets easier. Actually my tastes are already adjusting somewhat to the cooked food and I'm figuring out ways to shorten my kitchen prep time. Thank you also for the info about retesting safe cooked foods in their raw state.
And Debable, that site was so informative and seems to really be aligning with my experience.
I know I need to go to a doctor to get some testing done, but the last one I went to was so clueless. They gave me very bad information about my suspected gluten intolerance testing, and had I not known better myself, I could have set myself back several months if I had followed their foolish advice. When I questioned him on it, he admitted I was probably right. Yikes. And this was a specialist! So, I guess I've been burned and i wanted to try and heal this on my own, with my diet before I go back for more bad advice.
I am feeling pretty bad still today...very tired, dizzy, headache. I think this is largely from the caffeine. However, a few good things:
1) I don't hate the food as much.
2) My stomach honestly seems to be more soothed, my bloat is way down and I feel far less intestinal irritation. Almost no diarrhea. I think the biggest help, and also the step i resisted the most, has been cooking all my food. I honestly think I might have been doing a lot of damage with all the raw foods I was eating. i felt the raw foods should be 'healing', but maybe they're not such a good idea when your intestines and stomach are in great distress. Cooked veggies, fruits and starches are starting to make my tummy feel better...at least so far.
3) I slept very well last night...only woke up once instead of my usual 7-8 times! Could this be related to the 2 cups of coffee I used to drink each morning??
I want to feel better, i want to give my intestines a chance to heal. I only hope I can sustain this way of eating and do what I need to do to get better. My husband is extremely supportive and sees this as the last alternative before I really need to consider 'traditional' medicine, which we both want to avoid. I think they have so few answers for intestinal issues, and i don't want to undergo massive amounts of invasive tests if i can heal my intestines (whatever is wrong with them) just by eating the right foods.
Part of me wants a clear diagnosis, but part of me is guessing that they will label me with IBS which is just a catch-all for "we don't know what's wrong" and at that point, i'm pretty much left to sort out solutions on my own anyways. Right now, I feel like, why not skip the middleman and search for solutions on my own first.
Well, off to work...