Yesterday's walk was not very long, but it incorporated a couple of hills, as I hoofed it up to my bank which is only four blocks away, and got out some cash. The great thing about this neighborhood is, whatever direction I go, I will go down a hill and up a hill, both outbound and coming back.
So, getting to the ATM meant going down a hill and a STIFF uphill at the end, and getting home meant using my quads to go back down that steep incline, and of course up the hill to my street. It was a very good walk for cardio 30 min. and my heart rate was UP and normal, UP and normal a few times. they say that's a really good way to do cardio. Intervals? anyway...
I ended up chowing down on the bottom half of a bag of tortilla chips at the end of the day. Ingredients: corn, oil, and salt. So...vegan, but not McDougall! hahaha! and i refuse to kick myself EVER over my food choices. One thing I know about myself is, I will get "hyperfocused" to the point of obsession and adopt an "all or nothing" attitude. If I let myself go there, I will be proud and consider myself amazing for "obeying" the "diet" and if I slip up, I will hate myself and wonder "what is WRONG with me?" for not sticking to it. You know, feeling shame for eating is NEVER healthy...and of course, messing up once, when in THAT mode, will mean abandoning the new way of eating/living altogether.
That is so unhealthy, and I never want to go there again. I decided quite awhile ago (before re-starting McDougall) that I will not make myself follow a whole lot of rules about food. Don't want to get obsessed with food, you know? Huh, that's already sort of an issue for me, anyway. I'd like to get to where I don't think about it so much. Food. don't want to consider myself "good" if I follow the rules, and "bad" if I "break the rules". ugh. I want food to take its proper place in my life...and I still have some thinking to do about that.
And that's why I laugh at my own tortilla chip binge yesterday. I did it mindfully, chewing every bite and relishing the crunch and saltiness, but I certainly did DO it.
Other than tortilla chips, I ate
B: seven grain hot cereal by Bob's Mills w berries; coffee
L: baked potato w/lentil stew topper, and a bowl of steamed red cabbage
S: sugar pea pods
D: great big green salad w/321 dressing and linguine noodles w/plain Classico spaghetti sauce (Classico has no added sweetener WHATSOEVER and is just tomatoes and spices...and YUMMY)
S: tortilla chips ha!
Also, at work I played
I LOVE my job! (I work with disabled adults) we went to the park yesterday for lunch. Ate some, played some Frisbee, ran around w/Mr M...pushed him on the swings...and then some other clients got in the game...I spent a half hour or more being quite active...felt good. Mr M wants to always "go FASTER!" so I ran around with him a lot...it feels good to have energy for this kind of thing.
Today is going to be on the road. I'll eat B at home and pack a lunch, but Dinner will be boughten, so I have to think where I'll get my food. We'll be in SLC which has a broad selection of veggie restaurants...Indian? Vietnamese? Thai?
the food plan then
B: baked sweet potato; LO seven grain cereal; (mmm, think I'll put the cereal on the sweet potato and sprinkle some salt, garlic powder, and curry over it all...yum!) coffee
L: veggie sticks (carrot, celery, orange pepper, cauliflower) and almonds
D: somewhere with good vegan selections. It's got to include a salad. hm.