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Condolences and {hugs}. You have many friends here dear Buns.

Buns, I wanted to stop again and say I am praying for you and say sorry once again, words are so meaningless, but still that is all we have on line to give you!
hang in there, you will make it one day at a time.

Thinking of you...

thank you all for your words (which are WONDERFUL, Carollynne! ) and your prayers.

Last night, lying in bed, my head was just racing, and suddenly a shroud of peace calmed it all down, like a...hm, just like a Comforter, coming over me. I know it was the prayers of my beloved friends, and God was easing me and giving me peace of mind.

I'm still grieving, but found ways to keep moderately busy. Shopped for and made AJ's disappearing lasagne, which was delicious and of which my son ate a second helping! Rich for day-to-day with its cashews, but a FOR SURE recipe for potlucks, and I'm serving it on Easter.

Spent an hour or so visiting with Bill's daughter, which was awesome and sweet and sad. Went and said hello to Bill's co-workers who all hugged me and loved on me. :*) (we need a teary-eyed smiley) (because sometimes you cry because of sweetness, you know?)

I'll weep some more, I'm sure, but I have the love of God and His people surrounding me. Through it all, I know

8You are my God, and I will give thanks to you;
you are my God; I will extol you.
29 Oh give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
for his steadfast love endures forever!

Aw, buns. I found your lasagne post and followed it here. I'm so sorry about Bill!

Oh Bunns,I am sorry for your loss.You are in my prayers too. RAS

thanks, Deb. That fits the bill about right

that's pretty much where I am this morning with still quite a bit of

May the love of those around you help you through the days ahead.
Sorry for your loss.

Buns,
I have been out of town and just checked in here to see how you are doing...I was stunned to see your very sad news about Bill. I am so incredibly sorry. I know how much joy he brought to your life and how much you will miss him! I am praying for you, as many others are as well. It's so good to hear that God is bringing you comfort, even through you grief. Know that you are being lifted up. I am so sorry.

I wonder how many tears I can cry, before my tear ducts are dry?

Meanwhile, other than a taste of some chocolate covered Jelly Bellies (ack! ptui! blch! ) I've stuck really good to the MWL.

Going to start what amounts to a Mary's Mini on Friday, for 10 days. It will be greens and potatoes. Leaving off sauces, etc. VERY simple foods, as a sort of fasting but also another little kick to my weight loss. Will make at least half my plate greens, and following pinkrose who eats his greens first and saves his starches for "dessert"...I'm gonna do that, too.

It will be the final ten days leading up to Easter, and coincides with an intense prayer journey that I'm participating in with some online friends. Two of the days will be fasting days. Going to seek the Lord for some healing and direction.

I'm beginning to breathe a bit now. Woke up sad, but no tears this morning. Have been able to pray for others again. I'll cry today some time, I'm sure.

I met Bill's son and his ex-wife yesterday. What a cool kid, and the ex and I greeted each other with a hug. Found the perfect book for the memorial, where his daughter wants people to write a sentence or two about Bill: their memories, or the best things about him. It was healing to shop for that and tell the Hallmark lady why I needed it.

I'll take that to his family this evening, along with a really nice silver frame with a memorial poem engraved all around it, and I found a rustic wall hanging quotation thingy about PLAY...it's for his son, and I bought it because I never met anyone who liked to play as much as Bill did. It says PLAY Work hard and well, but always make sure that you have the time of your life. ...something like that...

It fits Bill to a T. Yup. Crying.

sure do miss him. One of my best friends. I am so blessed that he was part of my life, even for a brief time.

(((((((HUG))))))))))

Thanks for the big hug, Kirsty. It means a LOT. People from all over the place have been hugging me and crying with me. Very healing.

Oh man, what a day. The pain came on so strong today, as if it was fresh and Bill had just died today. I was pretty much non-functional at work. Got crying so hard, out of the blue, I couldn't see to drive. Forgot a client I was supposed to pick up. Yesterday was a mostly non-crying day, but I more than made up for it today. whew.

still ate MWL, though. I had a brief temptation to grab a bag of chips (a BIG bag, not a single serving size) but it went away when I remembered that I'm eating simply for the next ten days for both a Mary's Mini AND for a focused prayer journey.

Oh. Last night I ate about 10 oz of pistachios...SO salty, but they tasted good.

I'm really glad I have so much time with McDougall under my belt, so this grief in my life isn't turning into total emotional eating. I'm staying sane with the ole appetite.

dehydrating from all the tears...

Yesterday was Bill's memorial. It was a good get together, just a reception in his honor, with lots of people dropping by. I didn't know many of them, but the ones I did know, we were able to reminisce and love on each other. I came home completely drained.

and I'm wiped out today. Fact is, Bill had planned on coming to church with me today...it would have been his first time, and his desire to attend was an answer to my prayers. I know he trusted God and listened to Him, but he avoided church. so, he would have been there with me today

Instead, his wonderful ex-wife (she really is a gem. I liked her immediately) and his son (taller than Bill, which means REALLY REALLY tall!) and his daughter and grandkids...THEY were at church with me today! Such a blessing!

I ate popcorn today too bad, so sad. I shared a four cup bag with my son. It was too salty. and loaded with fat, no doubt.

otherwise, sane eating for every meal. My appetite has been pretty subdued, which is a big change. My normal reaction to every stress has always been to eat...but it hasn't been that way with this. I've eaten normal meals, when I haven't skipped due to not being hungry.

I will probably start posting my food choices here again tomorrow.

Buns, I haven't been reading journals for a couple of weeks, and just learned about Bill's passing. I am so, so sorry!! What a shock that must be for you. I pray that you will be comforted and strengthened through this sad time.

And what an incredible blessing that instead of Bill attending church with you, at least 5 other people did, because of Bill. WOWWWW!

May God continue to be your refuge and strength.
Cyber hugs,
Jubilee