Thanks for the support. I'm doing a lot better today. Hubby and I had a long talk and decided it will be 'ok'. Since he saw her a couple of weeks ago. Life happens, I guess...Don't really know how else to say it...
So I just wanted to post something in my journal. Lunch was really hard and akward for me today. My work, paid for us to have lunch. So they brought in food. This is the first time this happened. Well, I wasn't going to get anything, and I was feeling akward...o'well, I still wasn't going to get anything no matter how I felt. Anyways, a co-worker approached me--she knows I'm trying to eat healthier and that's all she knows..Well, she said I better get something to eat or everyone is going to start questioning about why I'm not eating. I told her I didn't care, they could ask questions but I'm not just going to put food on my plate to make people feel happy or more comfortable--or more whatever. Anyways, I decided to get some fruits, watermelon and grapes (they at least had those) and I put them on my plate. That's all I decided to eat. Then another co-worker, said "man you must be having a lifestyle change" what are you doing? I saw other people looking/listening, so I said I'll tell you later....So she came by later and I just told her I'm eating mainly fruit/vegetable/beans/potatoes etc. She was really supportive and told me to stand up for myself etc., and that people are just stupid--I agreed with her. Uh.. I'm so glad that's over with now...
I've eaten lunch with them before, but we usually all bring our own lunches. It has never been catered..So this was such a different situation. I really felt like I was in the spot-light and I didn't like it...It's just not my personality, I don't like being in the spot-light or the center of attention....So I made it, it's over with..And I won't have to face it again until next a month..Since we are all eating together once a month ...Uh...
I do feel like I accomplished a lot though..Man I used to would just cave in and just eat what they were eating. Not anymore. And also, they had roasted chicken and I noticed that it smelt really nasty to me. That's new to me...I used to always love the smell of roasted chicken..Very interesting..
Alright, I'm on plan and on track and feeling great. One minute at a time
