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Laura, thanks. So, this is the thing. I've lost my peppy mood and feel tired tired. I think I was running on adrenaline. The last couple of weeks have been a lot of work and fighting- issues around homelessness. I think I have crashed. I am eating well though. I just want my good food. I faltered last night in that feeling but still chose the good stuff. This morn I just love my food so I need to remember not to act on feelings. It's about choice and maturity and living life well.

That said, I am taking my 94 year old grandmother to lunch tomorrow and I just bet she will want an oyster poboy. She doesn't want to get out much and I'll take her wherever she wants to go. Not a good thing for me because I want them too. I'll be a big girl and choose a salad if this is all they have. I just wanted to mention it so I feel obligated to say later that i did well. This is a hard one. My son says you can grow oysters in a bucket and that they don't have enough of a central nervous system to suffer. When I want to eat oysters I think if I could just determine that they haven't come at the cost of the environment or suffering I would have them occasionally. i still have the illusion that I can moderate. Really. Go ahead and laugh.

Laura is going to Tanzania where people have real problems. My problems have solutions unless I eat myself to death.

Actually just saying that... I feel better.

Morn: oats and broc, sweet potato in mango sauce

Afternoon: spin, broc, caul, carrots, peas, corn, oats and ff bl bean hummus soup w/ spices and salsa added. Sounds gross but oh so good. Just nuked it and ate.

Eve: prob another concoction and a chopped salad. Might make some potato wedges to dip in the hummus. I'm boring myself so I'll stop.

Exercise: is cleaning the house. If you saw it you'd understand.

Anna, as is so often the case, your post made me smile. The part about your grandmother and oysters did because I too love oysters (just broiled with some lemon and parsley) and I too tell myself that they have no central nervous system, etc., but it's impossible to know whether or not it's okay to eat this life form. We've been wrong about so many things related to other creatures' intelligence, abilities, etc. The octopus is a perfect example. Anyway, good for you planning ahead. And I smiled about the housework being good exercise as I know how true this can be!

It sounds like you've got a good thing going with your cooking. Can you run the oatmeal and broccoli dish by me again? How do you make that?

Happy weekend!

Birdy, I know you are right about the oysters and you know, why even open that door? About the oats and broc. I cook them in the microwave while getting ready for work but of course they'd be even better on the stove I bet. I like my broc soft in them so I cook froz broc, steel cut oats, Ms DASH garlic and herb (get that one), sometimes throw frozen onion seasoning mix (lazy lazy in the morn), all together and when done some nutritional yeast. It is so good. I'm making some now. I tell myself sometimes not to eat it at night because I don't want to burn out on it. I'm such an addict. Managing my addiction to oats and broc. I've had all kinds of addictions. Yes, shrimp and oyster poboys, but healthier stuff too. Like once I ate so many canned green beans that I lost a size in clothing over the summer and probably ensured alzheimers- wasn't trying to lose weight. Then there was the other broccoli addiction. 4 servings at a time and looking for more every day. People would give it to me off their plates. And guacamole so much that friends trying to be nice would bring it to me. Didn't lose on that one. And it's not only food- I can be this way about other things as well. When I was a kid it was chinese jumprope or jax. This aimless writing has got me to thinking I need to find my new addiction in a sport. I could see myself liking racquetball or tennis like this or even yoga. I need to get this foot healed so I can put my addictive self to good use.

Ok, so I'm still eating well. And feeling much better today.

So I don't have as much of an appetite today... 1st day in a while. Kinda nice. Could it be I'm losing "toxic" hunger? Whatever.

Food:

Morn: oats and broc, sm soy latte

Afternoon: big salad w/ potato, bl bean humus, grapefruit, salsa, red onion, veg and potato soup

Eve: veg and potato soup

Exercise: Actually hit the gym and damn, I had a moment. You know, that one you get to when you are enjoying it and don't want to stop? Nice. Especially since I thought the guy w/ the bad breath next to me was going to floor me.

Food sounds good. Keep on keepin on

So today my 94 year old grandmother told me she is 3 months pregnant. She said she thought she had a crawfish in her stomach moving around and pinching, went to the doc and was told she is pregnant with a girl who is hungry and needing to be fed. The being fed apparently happens through grandma eating or through breast feeding so I think the girl must be on the outside sometimes. This was disturbing, yet oddly sweet and funny. She's been a pill lately, but today she was just concerned about the baby. Made me wonder if at her age (hoping) what my delusions may center around food wise- will they be vegan delusions? Will there be oil?

Food: (less hunger again today)

Morn: oats and broc

Afternoon: restaurant rice, beans, pasta, corn, marinara (had oil), salad (yah, I know)

Evening: salad w/ br rice, salsa, hummus (no oils)

Exercise: not today.

I've been realizing how many people look at these journals lately and feeling shy. Yah. Never noticed before. After all this letting the crazies out in public for all this time. Oh well. Journaling is good for me. I like the support and feedback.

Food:

Morn: oats and broc, potato

Afternoon: strawberries, ff veg chili over a huge huge bed of greens

Evening: oats and broc, sunflower seeds, beer.

Exercise: just a walk in the park.

You go, girl. I'm glad you let the crazies out -- I love reading about your journey.

Toadfood, thanks. I'm feeling good, enjoying this. I'm taking a break from the office right now. Client just blew and at one point I actually laughed- didn't mean to- It's just that she was funny and it came out before I got a hold of it.

I'm having a good day.

Morn: oats and broc, mango

Aft: potato, ff hummus, soon beans and greens soup

Eve: Mex br rice and a ton of shroons over raw cabbage, radishes, cukes. Sunflower seeds, beer.

I'm doing mostly MWL and having some regular plan cheats here and there. I think I can live with this. I think I like it. Not that I haven't tried many times to do it this way but for some reason at the moment it's all good.

Exercise: gym- 30 cadio 30 weights. Had a hard time tonight. The weights seemed heavier. Maybe I need to go more? Duh.

Your cheats are still Mcdougall--you rock!!

Home finally, taking a breather. Not perfect w/ food today but not too shabby either.

Morn: steel cut oats and berries (Wendy's)

Aft: potatoes and ff bl bean dip, salad w/ ff dressing

Eve: chinese restaurant- white rice w/ veggies and a little tofu, veg sushi. A little oil so that's the not perfect and so unnecessary. I have no real desire other than fleeting thoughts right now for high fat food. I better not eff with it or I will start wanting it again. I just realized this is the 3rd eating out this week including breakfast and I'm not supposed to be eating out often. I can't afford it. I thought I was doing better till I wrote about it. Yay journalling. Good reality check.

Exercise: Ain't happening.

I am cooking breakfast for 30-40 people. I'm making the McDougall sweet potato apple dish and adding toasted pecans so this group that usually eats donuts will have a taste of fat and won't totally rebel. They liked my oatmeal last time alot because I gave them lots of topping options.

So this is where I'm at. Weekend coming and I'm just not worried. My head is right. Plan to do quite a bit of cooking and food prep again. I may go to a concert tomorrow night for my Friday night treat. Doesn't always have to be food, right?

Sat morn. Just back from the farmer's market. Good stuff. Did ok yesterday- sweet pot, apple, pecan bake; potato and salad, oats and broccoli, taco salad, beer and sunflower seeds in the shell. Too many sunflower seeds.

This morn I had the best grits, pintos and salsa. Plan to make some Ratatouille w/ the eggplant and zucchini and basil I got from the farmers market. Gonna put it over the Louisiana brown rice I have. That stuff is some of the best brown rice I've had. Also will finally make the mushroom barley burgers before the shroons go bad and some mashed potatoes and cauliflower. Will make some greens and beans too- got some mustard greens from the farmer's market too.

I have done better with food these last 2 weeks than in a long time. Room for improvement but good. I feel better.

Morn: grits, pintos, salsa, nut yeast, oats and veggies

After: more oats and veggies

Eve:more grits, peach, little potatoes

Exercise: packing and lugging boxes for a friend? Lame, I know. Better than the couch, though.

Anna, I'm slowly catching up on your journal. Right now it looks like you are in a good place. That makes me glad.

Anna, your meals sound terrific. I love grits with beans and salsa.

Hi Anna, I'm still enjoying your journal! As for your comment about a lot of people reading the journals - maybe they should all have to comment!! Sometimes, on my journal, I feel like I'm talking to myself!! I'll say just any old thing, and then maybe a lot of people read it! Oh well, you are doing great!