i had a good and bad day. frustrating. my intestines were quite bloated today and i had pains. it put me in a down mood.
but yes, i'm pretty anal about spice blends. many curry spices put flour in it and not sure why. the ones from the organic market have labels but not so certain about if there are hidden ingredients. its frustrating. i need to find a place to get the fenegreek (?) again. i lost some spices since i was told spices are evil.
i rarely go out to eat because even if i'm careful, half the time i have the runs the next day regardless. i think when they use oils (even if you assume they arent using any) they use pans that werent cleaned and my body has problems with oils with high heat too. so ifind eating out unpleasant now.
i think i will put the rest of what i made in the freezer for when i'm desiring something more spicy. i found a simple (milder) red lentil curry recipe that i can use soymilk instead of the coconut milk since i'm liking creamy a lot now. i also have some fresh tumeric which i used in a dressing today that i liked and wanted a recipe with that in it too. i will try that tomorrow. i guess i can sprout for a day the red lentils too? i will try that then RRCs recipe. i think i will like the red lentils better, esp. if i mashed them up. i like split pea soup i know and those are mashed up. i'm hesitant to try any larger beans right now. i think mung beans might be a good idea to try too.
i was able to finally push myself out my apartment and go skating! i didnt go long before it rained and fell 3 times which hurt. but that sets reality how thin i am and i have thick pads even in my pants. but it lifted my mood and i was proud of myself for making the first step! i just got mad at myself because i am pushing myself to eat to DO things and live life and i'm sitting terrified in my apartment lying in bed. so i told myself to go and if i just stand there, so be it. i have to go and it was fine. i just was there 25 mins and stood around mostly but i did do some skating.
i'm just a little frustrated tonight because i get pushed by people who are blinded by the meat and dairy industry that i need meat then i get told how potatoes are enough. i know in reality there is a place in between that i'm working on doing that is actually healthy yet enough but not too much. i think even one serving of lentils a day would be good. my dr is very good. she isnt vegan or vegetarian but is compassionate to where i am and my limitations and works with me so i do make changes. i think when i start eating more and getting more vegan sources i can print out the protein content on the food and see if its enough she thinks for me to get better. i wish i had a lot of money and could do a consult with dr. mcdougall but even if i did, i'm sure like most drs. since its not his specialty and in the USA there are all these liability issues, he would brush me off.
oh how does toasting the rice before cooking affect it? i could try that too. how to make rice porridge 100 different ways lol.