Yes, you read that correctly!!! It is now the year 2012. The last year on this planet if you believe some things you read. I prefer to believe that we don't know the hour or the day. Keeps things suspenseful.
During the last week, I ran a poll to see how the tally should be tallied. The way it's always been done, since before I had it, was; any losses counted, any gains did not get taken away from the weekly/yearly total and in that way any re-losses did not count towards the tally either, until that person reached their lowest reported weight. It kept things mostly always positive. Problem with that was, we had to remember what that weight was, especially if any time had elapsed. But even someone who had a 5 pound gain, it still might take them 5 weeks, a lot gets forgotten in 5 weeks, we are busy people.
So the ending poll results are 7 for the change and 3 to stay the same. So we change.....
While I was away, Rosey did it the way I suppose it should of always been done. Any gains were taken from the totals so that who ever had the gains, their re-losses counted in the next week, thus keeping the year to date tally as true as possible.
So starting with our first weigh in for the year 2012, that is how I am going to do the tally. EVERYONE, no matter where you were before, starts from a fresh slate. EVERYONE'S weigh in counts, everyone is on the positive. I am doing this because the tally will be counted different.
Now, let's say someone participates for the first 2 months of the year and loses 14 pounds but drops off for a couple of months and gains back 7 of those, then I will take off those 7 pounds from the year to date part but not the weekly part. In that way, they are in the positive AND the year to date is correct.
That has always been my goal, to keep the tally correct and true as possible. Everyone still has to maintain honesty, especially if one falls off the wagon and gains a bit back. This is not a place to feel any shame or regret. But for it to be fair for everyone, we all have to be honest.
For me, this year starts off with digging my way out of a large hole. I have recently blogged about my mental state, especially after losing Sierra. That really threw me off the horse and far far from the trail. I have had to do a lot of soul searching to find out what I really want. I have had to dig deep to figure out the why bother and it doesn't matter attitude Ive suffered with since she got diagnosed then died. It's taken a lot. I'm still not fully there, but it is getting better. Being here helps a lot.
But Im now in a place where I am tired of carrying around this fat body. I hate getting up from a sitting position stiff and needing a few seconds to stand fully straight. I giggled at these shirts my step mom bought me, thinking "oh these are so going back, I could cover our commuter car with these" only to put one on and almost cry at what I have become. 3 years ago I was almost at my goal weight. By the time August rolls around this year, which will be 4 years to the date of conceiving my last little one, I want to be within 10 pounds of that. I also want to be running 3 miles by then, without pain. I want to stop what I believe is the beginning of psoriatic arthritis in my shoulder, I have no previous injury to my shoulder. My knees and hips are stiff and ache too.
So here's to a wonderful, productive, healthy, happy new year. I know we can all do it. We have to. We will.
A 2012 this is your year poem!!!
Hopefully it can be read, I dont know how to enlarge it.