Hello all, this is my first day on the diet and I feel I have already stuffed up with the portion size.
I've read a few of the entries before registering on the site, and well, so far today I have had:Breakfast: an extremely large bowl (summo wrestler size) of porridge made with water and 1x bannana.
Lunch - which I have just had: 1/2 very large sweet potato and vegetables (again a large bowl - summo size).
So me, well I guess I've tried a number of diets recently after putting on more than 15 kilos and none of them really suited me. I'm not a protein sort of gal in the sense of eating meat etc as I just don't like meat, chicken etc.
I use to be a really fat kid. My mum died when I was a kid and well the fat just grew and grew (in Australia I was a size 24 and busting out of that. I remember the kids use to call me Jumbo and I use to go home and cry. I hated school because of that). Then one day in my mid 30's I just got fed up and started walking (which for me was like a miracle occuring as I tended to avoid exercise, well lets be honest - I avoided it like it was a plague. And, I lost all this weight - well I started to eat sensibly etc. And I went down to a size 8/10 and began to love exercise and the comments people were making about me - which were positive. I even inspired people to get off their butts. Well that was all and good, however, when I lost the weight, men started to pay me attention. This had never happened before to me. And, well I fell in love, however I've realised early this year that he didn't love me. Around the time I figured this all out my cousin (who was like my sister) got cancer and because of being unhappy in the relationship and dealing with her cancer I put on the weight and well I'm fat and depressed. I have though ended the relationship and although it has been hard, it was the best decision for me. Oh I forgot to say I inherited my cousin's dog (Nicki) and well he also has put on weight (I figured we were both grieving - yep dogs can grieve too and we used food as comfort) so the fat dog and the fat gal both need to lose weight. However, diets such as those that a high protein and are in favour at the moment didn't really do it for me. And, whatever occured in my 30's that resulted in weight loss is no longer occuring. Instead I'm putting on weight and I am continuing to put it on. So I stumbled over Dr McDougall's book and went to the website and here I am. I loved the fact that it is basically a vegan diet and that he isn't trying to tell me to have diary for calcium etc. However, today I'm a tad depressed already as I think I have stuffed up the portion size. And, I guess I'm fearful that I just won't lose the weight. I know psychologically I'm probably using the food as comfort but it is like I can't stop shoving the food in. The dog and I both inhale food. So I decided to write this down and maybe kept a diary of this journey, because for me - the reason why this diet seems to make sense is that It focuses on vegetables, fruit and starches. The diet doesn't make me feel guilty for not liking diary. And, I believe I will feel heathier as an added bonus. So this is what I need -
I need to lose at least 15 kilos - at least to get back into some of my clothes because at present I only have a couple of outfits. I have taken some control after ending the relationship - I have commenced doing Pilates - well I'm 50 in November and I figured maybe it was the exercise that would assist in flexibility as I head towards this new stage in my life. I have also arranged to walk 3 times a week with friends. So the exercise bit is on the way. Its the portion control that I need help on.
So it is Tuesday 24/5/2011 and I am aiming to lose 15 kilos.
To anyone who actually reads this, thank you. I needed to write this down to cement the commencement of this journey. So I will (not try but will) have 1/2 cup of dried oats as the portion size tommorrow for breakfast. And I will have the other half of the large sweet potato for the starch for lunch. At least now that I've written it down I can't go back on my word -so I will just have to do it. I am having hot water with fresh lemon (which I am hoping is o.k.
Cheers - Jan